|
 hypnotiQ
Stranger
Registered: 03/02/07
Posts: 7
Last seen: 1 year, 8 months
|
 Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6639207 - 03/05/07 07:45 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
LSD
MDMA
Mushrooms
Tea
Meditation
Hiking
check check double check. These are some of my favorite things in life. Now for some earl grey. Soothing.
|
 Dark_Star
child ofboundless seas
 
Registered: 08/20/04
Posts: 6,105
Loc: A transitive nightfall of...
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: hypnotiQ]
#6639353 - 03/05/07 08:17 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Can't forget the deemsters. 
--------------------
"That was some of the sorriest shit I've ever been around." - Miles Davis on Washington, after going to an awards show thrown for Ray Charles by the Reagan administration.
|
WhiskeyClone
Not here
Registered: 06/25/01
Posts: 13,826
Loc: Longitudinal Center of Ca...
Last seen: 11 hours, 29 minutes
|
|
Quote:
WhiskeyClone said:
I'm gearing up for four drug-free weeks starting March 5 just to see what it's like.
Haha that lasted about 24 hours. 
My friend from BC whom I haven't seen in years decides to fly out for a visit. Wants to party when he arrives... What was I to do?
Said friend calls me yesterday, asks if I "need anything." I hesitate, then say "um, yes."
I think my problem is that I forgot why I wanted to take a break. And I never figured out how to handle certain situations. Back to the drawing board...
...once my stash is gone 
--------------------
-oOo-
"My children," said an old man to his boys scared by a figure in the dark entry, "my children, you will never see any thing worse than yourselves." As in dreams, so in the scarcely less fluid events of the world, every man sees himself as colossal, without knowing that it is himself. The good, compared to the evil which he sees, is as his own good to his own evil.
~ R.W. Emerson, "Spiritual Laws"
-oOo-
|
OneMoreRobot3021
punky jewster
Registered: 06/06/03
Posts: 56,599
Loc: new york shitty
Last seen: 5 hours, 3 minutes
|
|
I intended to not get intoxicated at all this week between Monday and Saturday. That ended Monday.
--------------------
The Drug Policy Alliance  Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies
"The psychedelic experience - it has a tremendous force to revivify the spirit, particularly because it is not an ideology. It is not something someone 'figured out.' It is an EXPERIENCE. And this is important to bear in mind." - McKenna.
"We're not mad, we're just doing what we want. You rigid thinkers can't recognize the healthy sanity of that." - Harlan Ellison, "Crackpots"
|
Dark_Star
child ofboundless seas
Registered: 08/20/04
Posts: 6,105
Loc: A transitive nightfall of...
|
|
Quote:
Haha that lasted about 24 hours.
My friend from BC whom I haven't seen in years decides to fly out for a visit. Wants to party when he arrives... What was I to do?
Said friend calls me yesterday, asks if I "need anything." I hesitate, then say "um, yes."
I think my problem is that I forgot why I wanted to take a break. And I never figured out how to handle certain situations. Back to the drawing board...
 Yup......it NEVER fails. The story you just told resonates strongly with me, and probably most of us here....
Quote:
...once my stash is gone
It'll be magically replenished......
Quote:
I intended to not get intoxicated at all this week between Monday and Saturday. That ended Monday.
 I've been the same way with herb and beer (I only drink a couple a night, but it still gives me a buzz) lately.
--------------------
"That was some of the sorriest shit I've ever been around." - Miles Davis on Washington, after going to an awards show thrown for Ray Charles by the Reagan administration.
|
hypnotiQ
Stranger
Registered: 03/02/07
Posts: 7
Last seen: 1 year, 8 months
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6651340 - 03/08/07 11:39 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
I was doing good til today. Spent all day and all night on the computer without leaving the house. Made a few important phone calls though (all the while sitting in front of my PC). And I cleaned up the house a little bit too. Did some pushups too (1 set of 15, then 1 of 10). I'm going to sleep tonight with a plan to walk to my friends house in the morning to go with him to the store to buy a fireplace. I'm glad I have plans to get out of the house tommorow morning but I've been having trouble sleeping at my new bedtime (which has slipped from 1-2am to 3-3:30am) and though I feel rested in the morning I still struggle to fall asleep. The melatonin which I scaled back from 9mg to 6mg yesterday doesn't help with falling asleep but I do feel like it's giving me a more quality sleep. I feel very rested in the morning but by the time I get out of bed its noon. Usually I wake up before that but I often feel like no reason to get up so I stay in bed and wack off.
Starting tonight I'm going to keep a sleep schedule (when I went to bed when I got out of bed) and I'm going to keep notes for how much exercise I do and how much sunlight(important because of winter blues/seasonal affective disorder) I take in.
Hopefully my weekend is eventful. I want to stay away from the house as much as possible. It's starting to warm up too it's just a matter of keeping myself occupied.
|
Cubieman420
Sharing in thegroove
Registered: 03/20/02
Posts: 2,601
Loc: Midwest
Last seen: 4 months, 7 days
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: hypnotiQ]
#6651587 - 03/09/07 01:22 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Went from all opiates, mainly oxy--->methadone taper--->Bupe taper...working on going to nothing in the next day or two. Just to sum a LOT up I was (and still am) a pretty severe opiate addict, I could rail 3 80's in a row and still not be there. This has been going on for almost 2 years of daily use.
--------------------
"...now waters run free, no more fish in the sea..."
1983-2004
|
dobie
I catch the fish around here
Registered: 08/15/02
Posts: 32,626
Loc: the couv
Last seen: 11 hours, 44 minutes
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Cubieman420]
#6651805 - 03/09/07 03:46 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Still suck like chuck I need mad cash to go to rehab that I don't have or I need a oregon address so they think I am a resident and hook me up hella cheap.
|
WhiskeyClone
Not here
Registered: 06/25/01
Posts: 13,826
Loc: Longitudinal Center of Ca...
Last seen: 11 hours, 29 minutes
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6652210 - 03/09/07 08:55 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
WTF is wrong with me... I went to get groceries yesterday and ended up going to a head shop instead and buying a new bong
Now I just need some groceries...
...and some willpower or something.
--------------------
-oOo-
"My children," said an old man to his boys scared by a figure in the dark entry, "my children, you will never see any thing worse than yourselves." As in dreams, so in the scarcely less fluid events of the world, every man sees himself as colossal, without knowing that it is himself. The good, compared to the evil which he sees, is as his own good to his own evil.
~ R.W. Emerson, "Spiritual Laws"
-oOo-
|
ScYiNs47
_"MiDwEsTFLEsh"->
Registered: 12/14/06
Posts: 832
Loc: Chicago, Ill-State. USA
Last seen: 8 hours, 30 minutes
|
|
I've been clean for two months. At first I vortexed into depression because I guess I was chemically dependent. Then I eventually got out of it. I find it hard now on those boring days because there's nothing better to do. But I stay strong. I find that you're never really sober until the drugs are completely out of your system. It's weird. But you finally find the sober like when you were a child except now you're grown up. It's hard to explain but I felt it.You'll never know what I'm talking about until you're like 1 mo- 1 mo1/2 in so try it and you'll see what I mean.
But yeah you never know how dependent and fucked your head was until you stop. That's my take.
--------------------
-------------------- 
|
Dark_Star
child ofboundless seas
Registered: 08/20/04
Posts: 6,105
Loc: A transitive nightfall of...
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: ScYiNs47]
#6654091 - 03/09/07 08:09 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
--------------------
"That was some of the sorriest shit I've ever been around." - Miles Davis on Washington, after going to an awards show thrown for Ray Charles by the Reagan administration.
|
hypnotiQ
Stranger
Registered: 03/02/07
Posts: 7
Last seen: 1 year, 8 months
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6666311 - 03/13/07 07:58 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
struggling. 
|
Tasty_Smurf_House
Registered: 08/20/03
Posts: 8,624
Loc: Canada
Last seen: 1 month, 8 days
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: hypnotiQ]
#6673259 - 03/15/07 03:11 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
i've been done both cocaine and cigarettes for almost 3 months. love it.
--------------------
Des: just because I've had kids doesn't mean that I'm crazy loose dammit
|
Dark_Star
child ofboundless seas
Registered: 08/20/04
Posts: 6,105
Loc: A transitive nightfall of...
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: hypnotiQ]
#6674101 - 03/15/07 07:07 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Keep on fighting brother...you can do this. I have faith in you!  
Quote:
i've been done both cocaine and cigarettes for almost 3 months. love it.
Right on brother, keep it up! 
--------------------
"That was some of the sorriest shit I've ever been around." - Miles Davis on Washington, after going to an awards show thrown for Ray Charles by the Reagan administration.
|
Dreamer987
The VerbalHerman Munster
Registered: 04/15/03
Posts: 5,253
Loc: Texas
Last seen: 10 months, 29 days
|
 Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6679360 - 03/17/07 05:02 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
I just wanted to say that i'm recognising my casual use of Heroin has the potential to turn into addiction.
So far in my drug career opiates have always been a favorite, and i'v been able to easily keep its use on the moderate side. However i'v been doing it every week on and off for a few months now, and i'm scared that i may slip into the big hole.
I think i can keep things casual, but if i don't address the core issues of my depresion, and most of the things my life being structured around drugs, and drug culture...
I don't know. I had to type this out, so that i can look back on it later.
--------------------
|
blissedout
Lysergically displaced
Registered: 11/11/04
Posts: 16,264
Loc: Rat Race
Last seen: 1 day, 8 hours
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Dark_Star]
#6679638 - 03/17/07 09:54 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
So, I have been taking a break from alcohol and I gotta say that I can really feel a difference in the way that I feel on a daily basis! Every morning I wake up around 7:30am and just feel great! I am also not drinking sodas, coffee, or basically anything other than water and fruit juices. The urge to drink sodas has been the strongest, by far! Many times throughout my work day I will have these sudden strong urges to drink some soda. I thought the urge to drink alcohol would be alot stronger, but I haven't really thought about it much and I go and talk with my bartender friends almost daily. It's good to know that I hadn't gotten physically dependant on alcohol. I was really worried about that. It's been 3 weeks now and I have one official week to go, until I can drink again, but I am definitely going to lighten up on my drinking from now on. I have saved a ton of money, too! Those bar tabs sure do add up!
Anyway, good luck to you all in your personal struggles. I hope only the best for you.
--------------------
Here we are.
Here and now.
|
Sage
Human
Registered: 03/29/06
Posts: 205
Loc: Cali Valie
Last seen: 11 hours, 39 minutes
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: blissedout]
#6680277 - 03/17/07 01:48 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Hello, My name is Sage. I am an addict. its been 4 days since i have used heroin (smoked). I still do my "Medicinal Drugs" such as: Pot,Mushrooms,LSD,San Pedro. The past few days have been rough but I had Mr.Pot right by my side. Today I Threw some Psilocybin Neurotransmitters. into my brain(only a 1.1gram) Figuring that this would probably open my mind to other ways of piecing my life together.
I don't want to be an addict, But I am. Heres what my struggle was like:http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Cat/0/Number/6662263/an/0/page/0].
That was all it took for me to "stop the heroin cold Turkey", Thanks CUBErt good advice.
"http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Board=42&Number=6625871&page=1&fpart=1
Check that out whenever you feel the need to reach out brother. "
Big thanks to you Dark_Star. Outside of this "Internet Realm" I'm sure u are a very Happy human and one hell of a good friend to have.
Take care of your body.
Respect your mind.
Fallow your goals.
Love and Peace,
Sage (eardrums pwnd by Shpongle)
|
Ferris
PsychedelicJourneyman
Registered: 03/12/06
Posts: 6,954
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Sage]
#6680761 - 03/17/07 04:02 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
I never meant to get addicted. I don't even have that "prone-to-addiction" type of personality.
Nevertheless, I find myself in the middle of a struggle to kick a meth addiction that has been going on for over a year. I used for over three years, never consistently, so I thought I was avoiding addiction that way. I depended on it at key times though and after a long time, it occurred to me I couldn't handle crunch times without it.
I've had much lower moments in my struggle, but now my other problems are exacerbating it. There are signs everywhere. Last night, I smoked a rock after not touching the stuff for 2-3 weeks and it didn't even do much for me. To me, that is a sign that I need to quit.
My regiment of exercise and philosophical thought seems to help a lot because it keeps me physically and mentally sharp. I'm sure that if I let those go, I would go to shit really fast. Actually, I know from experience that I would.
Really, the missing factor in my life is friends. If I got my social life back under control, I wouldn't have much of a need for meth anymore. The stuff makes me interesting and willing to discuss what is going on in my head.
Fixing myself so that I don't need a drug to believe that others are interested in what I am saying isn't something I feel I can just do. Really, the weird thing is that I know I have interesting things to say, I just don't think other people are interested in hearing them.
In response, I try to surround myself in people that are like me and have similar interests, but that might be the wrong solution. I think the real solution for myself is to find a new goal in life. I'm sure you all know how hard that one can be though. I think too much and constantly throw away old ideas in favor of pursuing a new one that will ultimately be just as short-lived.
For instance, I just came up with the basis for the design of a new type of computer. It's complicated and in the end it may or may not work at all. But if I were to actually research it, it would take at least a year if not a decade of two or work. I just don't have the attention span for that sort of thing anymore. If the thought had occurred to me 5 years ago, I would be all up in arms about research and school and trekking into the unknown.
Now I just think that it is one of an infinite space of unknown. And what would be the point if I'm not heading toward any sense of completeness? If I didn't pursue it with all my power, it would be a waste. And if I did, I wouldn't have any time to experience being human. I guess I wish I had two lives where I could be academic and human at the same time.
Meth makes me feel like I can do that, because it makes me feel superhuman, able to do both at once. The trade-off is of course not being able to do either for a while afterwards, and that lack of stability wrecks all that I had built up while godlike.
I'm listening to you all by the way, it's nice just to know that I'm not the only person out there.
--------------------
 
The life of American Vagabonds
To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.
-Oscar Wilde
|
Dark_Star
child ofboundless seas
Registered: 08/20/04
Posts: 6,105
Loc: A transitive nightfall of...
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Ferris]
#6710577 - 03/25/07 06:55 PM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Just tell yourself that the sooner you quit, the easier it will be. I wish that I'd kicked my addictions way sooner....I wasted a lot of time & money. Money can be replaced, time cannot.
--------------------
"That was some of the sorriest shit I've ever been around." - Miles Davis on Washington, after going to an awards show thrown for Ray Charles by the Reagan administration.
|
blissedout
Lysergically displaced
Registered: 11/11/04
Posts: 16,264
Loc: Rat Race
Last seen: 1 day, 8 hours
|
Re: Addiction Support Thread [Re: Ferris]
#6715365 - 03/27/07 01:51 AM (1 year, 8 months ago) |
|
|
I had no idea of your struggle with meth, Ferris. I did that shit on and off for about 18 months. This was a few years ago and now, I cringe evertime I think about smoking that shit! Thinking about doing a hotrail makes my stomach turn.
Give it up, man. That shit is no good!! I wish you luck in your goals.
On another note, I haven't had anything to drink other than water and fruit juice for Exactly a month, now. It was alot easier than I anticipated. I am going to continue on with not drinking sodas, but I think I will have a beer soon. I know now that I am not an alcoholic. I just like drinking good beer! It makes my mouth water sometimes to think about. I'm not going to go out to bars like I used to, though. I was amazed at how much money I saved by doing this! From now on, I am doing most of my beer drinking in the comfort of my own home. I have alot of things that I need to buy for our home and the days of pissing it all away are over.
Good luck and godspeed in getting through the hard times of all of you guys' struggles.
--------------------
Here we are.
Here and now.
|
|
login or 
register to post messages and view our members-only content. You'll gain access to additional forums, encrypted messages, file attachments, board customizations, and much more!
Previous
Index
Next
Threaded
Edit 
Reply 
Quote 
