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OfflineHawkeye3
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I'm so fucking depressed
    #5141014 - 01/04/06 09:44 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Holy shit.



So I stopped taking my zoloft about a month ago for various reasons. I haven't been this depressed in... a while. If it weren't for my brother and the love that I have for him I would off myself in a fucking heartbeat. So selfish.


I just basically have given up. My motivation is less than zero. I get nothing done anymore, am falling so behind in schoolwork, I want to drop out, I don't give a fuck, I just want to wallow in a fucking pool of my own self-pity and sorrow, every day like this I am falling farther and farther behind, and more and more depressed, I took a shower and cried three times, like a little bitch, you might think duh take your zoloft but I just DON'T want to take it. And I'm to depressed to even care anymore. So I know nobody gives a fuck but I just wanted to tell someone. Holy fuck.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141036 - 01/04/06 09:50 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

I know that feeling. Could you choose to take a Zoloft, right now? I know you don't feel like it, but you might as well do it. It may not help right away but it couldn't hurt either. It could give you a boost which to be honest you sound like you really need right now!

And I care, otherwise I wouldn't have replied. :hug:


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OfflineHawkeye3
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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: MOTH]
    #5141071 - 01/04/06 09:58 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

I could, of course, I just don't WANT to. My motivation is gone. Absolutely gone. Even the motivation to take a pill. I just want to get fucked up. And be a failure. And I didn't even make this thread to hear a bunch of people tell me how good of a person I am (no offense). Thank you for your advice, it does mean a lot, even though it shouldn't. I just

am so

fucking


BEAT

and stressed, 24/7, I have heartburn, I have absolutely terrifying dreams, it plagues me all the time, I feel lonely, overwhelmingly EMPTY. What the fuck, depression is the worst feeling in the world, I'm just going through my days like a spectre getting deeper and deeper into a hole with schoolwork. And I'll never catch up, thanks to my motivation problems.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: MOTH]
    #5141086 - 01/04/06 10:03 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

totally know how your feeling. It really sucks when your soo sad and depressed that A) you cry in the shower, that's the worst feeling ever and B) when the only thing that'll make you feel better is wallowing in your self pity. it like gets to the point that the thought of talking to someone about it or hugging someone just makes you want to cry more. It's such a hard rut to get yourself out of.

But maybe Ellemy is right. I mean taking that zoloft might not be something you want to do, but fuck when your this low how much worse can it really get? It's worth a try...

would asking you why you stopped taking them be prying?


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141107 - 01/04/06 10:06 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

It sucks. :frown:

I have zero self-motivation too. I don't see the point in doing something purely for myself, I want to be with others.

Why are so many people completely alone and isolated when there's 6 billion of us on the Earth! There's no sense of community anymore, everythings on too huge a scale, they've got us all by the fucking throats and we're letting them bleed us dry.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141108 - 01/04/06 10:06 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Depression destroyed me. I tried to get through it on my own and it got to the point where I was extremely dangerous to myself and others. I felt like ending it all the time and wanted nothing more then to just feel nothingness upon nothingness.

Ask for help.

Tell someone, anyone close to you. It is so difficult to ask but you have too. It will put you on the path to being comfortable with yourself. You cannot do this alone.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: AniNator]
    #5141117 - 01/04/06 10:07 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Quote:

AniNator said:
totally know how your feeling. It really sucks when your soo sad and depressed that A) you cry in the shower, that's the worst feeling ever and B) when the only thing that'll make you feel better is wallowing in your self pity. it like gets to the point that the thought of talking to someone about it or hugging someone just makes you want to cry more. It's such a hard rut to get yourself out of.

But maybe Ellemy is right. I mean taking that zoloft might not be something you want to do, but fuck when your this low how much worse can it really get? It's worth a try...

would asking you why you stopped taking them be prying?





If you want to know, it was so I could roll, see, I'm a pathetic drugged out mess and the only thing that makes me feel good is drugs. And now I'm stuck in a hole that won't go away even if I feel happy again. And it's my fault. My entire situation is my fault. I understand this. It's my fault I feel like this, and why the fuck would I want to live with myself, who the fuck does this to themselves, me, because I'm a fucking LOSER that fucked themselves for drugs and now I don't give a fuck enough to get better and the only thing making me feel better is rambling to a bunch of people online that I'll never meet because I'm too depressed to open my mouth or ask for help or do anything and on top of this my motivation is none and I procrastinate everything and then don't even do it.


I feel like I just want to, fucking break something. I want to smash evereything in this room and watch it burn.


I've got fucking problems. See, it's a neverending cycle of negative thoughts and I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO WASTE AWAY AND GET FUCKED UP!!@$


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141128 - 01/04/06 10:09 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Hey bro, the darkest hour comes just before dawn. Remember that. Peace :heart:


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: FractalDust]
    #5141136 - 01/04/06 10:12 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Quote:

FractalDust said:
Hey bro, the darkest hour comes just before dawn. Remember that. Peace :heart:




I'm such a fucking mess reading that filled me with the urge to cry, in fact I am going to go lie down in bed and contemplate my life and my brother and my fucked up sitch and that quote and cry until I pass out. Keep the replies coming, maybe I will have something to wake up for in the morning holy fuck.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: AniNator]
    #5141160 - 01/04/06 10:18 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

i hear ya man... the only thing that i can say you gotta do is realize that the longer you do this to yourself the longer it's gonna last and the harder it's gonna be to pull yourself out.

The only thing that motivates me when i'm depressed is knowing that if i don't force myself to pull myself out, it's gonna get worse. God that feeling SUCKS! and you know you don't wanna feel that.

I say this think about your favorite moment in a song, think about...your favorite time of day, or... your favorite foods close your eyes. literally imagine them as if you're experiencing them. remember the small things in life that in passing would put a smile on your face and dissect it and elaborate.

i dunno if you even feel like hearing that... but that also helps me. Put on a Beatles album beatles always work too


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: AniNator]
    #5141248 - 01/04/06 10:34 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Check your pm's


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Terrapin77]
    #5141313 - 01/04/06 10:46 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Seriously man... if things are that bad for you... and you really can't get out of your own way...

Consider committing yourself.

May sound harsh, but it could save your life and your chance at watching your brother grow up.

I've been down those dark roads, and know how you feel. I stopped taking wellbutrin so I could drink more.

Talk to your mom or dad, or anyone that really cares about you and follow whatever advice they give you.

Also, lay off the rolls. Those will fuck up your emotional well-being forever.

Best of luck, and remember... Life is just a game.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Terrapin77]
    #5141317 - 01/04/06 10:47 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

dud eiv been there
on the edge
feeling like theres no way out
hang in there
it does get better :smile: and as for motivation, hey take it one step at a time
maybe you should reasses what you WANT to do
if what you are doing now is not stimulating you to continue, then stop....and think :cool:
take as much time as you like
:hug: we are always here


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: notapillow]
    #5141336 - 01/04/06 10:52 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

You also should consider dropping out of school for a bit. Too much responsibility for a depressed person adds fuel to the fire. You need to have as little responsibility as possible on your path to recovery. Then take more things on as time goes on...


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Mcdoopy]
    #5141392 - 01/04/06 11:02 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

meditation helped me alot
i know it sounds geh
but you might what to atleased give it a try
somtimes the best thing to do is nothing at all


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: notapillow]
    #5141626 - 01/04/06 11:42 PM (3 years, 5 days ago)

or take a vacation :thumbup:


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: notapillow]
    #5141796 - 01/05/06 12:21 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Quote:

notapillow said:
meditation helped me alot




same


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141839 - 01/05/06 12:35 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

do you have any joy? music, maybe? art? traveling? find whatever joyful hobby you have and take to the extreme.

are you lonely? hit me up on the aim, if you want someone else to talk to.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Hawkeye3]
    #5141859 - 01/05/06 12:38 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

how do you think you become this way?


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Vvellum]
    #5141875 - 01/05/06 12:42 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Hang in there man, SSRI withdrawals are bad news. If you stopped taking zoloft a month ago, the next couple months are going to suck. a lot. I just got over when I stopped taking Lexapro about a month ago. I tapered my dosage for 3 months, then stopped, and felt withdrawal for 3 more months. it sucked man but after you get over it you'll feel somewhat back to your normal self. There's always that rebound when you quit taking an SSRI though...Hang in there, though, There is light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak. :shineon:


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: some1whoisntme]
    #5141890 - 01/05/06 12:46 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

a good :doggystyle: always helps too :wink:


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: Mcdoopy]
    #5141971 - 01/05/06 01:07 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

Stick with the antidepresents and know drugs definetly arnt going to help you. I delt with depression for awhile and had some hard times with it. E has the nasty side effect of making you more depressed after taking it due to lack of seritonin. Its not somthing you want to mess with when your depressed because it will only make you worse. In fact you shouldnt mess with any drugs unless you are in the right stable mind set. I wish I had the solution for you but that is the funny thing about depression you have to find your own way out. For me I got on antidepressents, took a break from school and work, and tryed to focus on getting out of my normal routine and finding things that made me happy even if it was only for a short time. Sometimes we fall so into a rutt that we cant see the light, but no one ever got out of a rutt by giving up or diging a deeper hole either.


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Re: I'm so fucking depressed [Re: blueferret]
    #5142073 - 01/05/06 01:47 AM (3 years, 5 days ago)

I think a lot of people in this community need to consider one thing....


stop taking drugs?


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