-(I know its lengthy) A lot of background info, questions midway through, experience in middle and at end-
So swim, after tripping a lot of psychedelics over the past four years has become very aware about little things here and there about his psychedelic experiences. Swim always seem to experience a strong head buzz on acid and he definitely sees why people call it "frying". When meditating while tripping, swim learned that the head buzz correlated directly with his visuals, when the buzz is altered or he feels the buzz shift/pause for a second he can see the patterns shift/pause with it, closed and opened eyed visuals. He has noticed this in the different head buzzes and visuals that come with shrooms, dmt, lsd and mescaline.
Swim use to not enjoy the head buzz from some drugs such as lsd, then he stopped associating it with something being wrong or bad and would let himself go and let the drug overtake him, this helped greatly. when he does this he notices the visuals get stronger and the trip perpetuates itself, becoming more blissful. So, the other day swim took 3 blotter of Lucy outside, at which during one peak he started directing his head buzz while meditating and started focusing it to the top of his head where it felt like it was naturally going anyway (coming around from behind the jaw and up to the top of the head). Now instead of the buzz constantly moving around, tingling in various places in his head, he had focused it to a specific point and was keeping it there. He would think of it as energy and keeping it focused. After doing this for over 15 minutes (had been into the trip a good 3 hours already), being completely thoughtless, swim finally opened his eyes (not focusing directly on his environment, still focused on his head buzz) and awoke to his landscape looking like he had taken 3 additional hits (or a took a couple hits of dmt, but that came later.. ) it was so ineffable and transformed, the colors of the sky, clouds, trees, going crazy through every bright color hue. Every cloud in the sky at this point had turned into swirling fractals (of which the the tips of the clouds swirled into more swirling fractals, and those tips swirled into more swirling fractals...etc...) of pulsing multi-colors with a negative image quality to the colors, similar to the psychedelic effects they use in films, like in across the universe on the bus scene.. Swim has always felt he can perpetuate trips and believes when he is focusing on his head buzz, that it is essentially meditating because during the whole process, there was no thoughts running around his ADHD mind like usual. he did enjoy that analytical aspect later as he had to get off his hammock and go do a quick chore and got his body and brain going. it was at this point too he realized how little he was really tripping and how easy it was to bike, navigate and how natural everything looked. it was like when he wanted the lsd to take a backseat, it did, it would nearly go away except for few visuals on things like wood grain and the clouds still twirling (which never stopped till the next day). the head buzz would even dissipate if he let it, yet he discovered music as he was coming down and it re-ignited that same head buzz feeling (that same head tingling when he hears amazing music or stuff that gives him cold chills), he found his visuals coming back (very lightly as my ceiling was just playing geometric patterns). hes felt these head buzzes naturally but slightly different when he does things that are gratifying like helping others or being praised for a good job, that buzz; or even when it comes before cold chills of remembering a long lost memory.. Are these related?
However he had a couple questions as he came down off Lucy and pondered this wonderful experience (as this was swims first time he had gotten a good 3 doses, all the other 5-6 times swim took too low of a dose where he didnt get visuals and just felt kind of crazy). (PS, his girl took one hit and saw no visuals just a speedy effect and increase creativity, 125 pounds , so he estimates the blotters have been 75-100 mic from experience.)
1. Does anyone else have anymore insight into this head buzz, and focusing it? Anyone do the same thing or have similar experiences? is this really like meditating and is that why it perpetuates the trip and makes it stronger, usually more euphoric, and better overall?
2. When swim sat there tripping without thought of himself, time, reality, (even though he could have brought it in to recollection if he had wanted too) isn't this like ego death? Just not being torn away from ego but letting it go? swim had gotten tired of the visuals after a bit so began exploring inside his head to go further yet he couldn't remember what ego death was suppose to be or feel like, he couldn't bring it into a concept so he really didnt know how to focus on it. He gave up after sometime, deciding he didnt dose high enough for it to occur and returned back to the visuals and thoughts. However swim quickly realized the visuals could still do more, he just looked at things in a more novel way. Quickly the sky turned into a great lake where he was seeing reflections of a different place created by the fractal clouds.
(lsd+dmt) swim was coming down off the last peak, still feeling the lsd strong when him and his girl loaded up a lot of dmt into a small glass pipe and we both blasted off. Talk about a holy union. he felt like the lsd had him at a psychedelic level that better prepared him for dmt, to accept it on better ground/terms. The dmt didnt kick his ass either, it came on lovingly and embraced his visuals with its own stream of unique patterns, watching these two chemicals merging together in this space-less universe swim was currently inhabiting, the feeling was of Ecstasy but he instantly felt the presence of something more spiritual or connected to "something else" which he says he usually always feels on tryptamines. He said it was very interesting to have that introduced into his psyche and being able to watch dmt flood his consciousness, spirituality, and visuals while he was already tripping. Needless to say he bumped dmt hits for a while on the comedown.
Swim loved the outdoor lsd visuals as he saw patterns began to weave in mid air (phosphenes?) till the area looked like it was in a cloud of infinitesimally small geometric lined tunnels , twisting down from the clouds and sky. It was visuals he had seen before on dmt the first time he ever saw it and ever since he always sees it on any psychedelic (at a high enough dose).. Swim feels like he has a psychedelic database of visuals from different psychedelics that re-appear under just about any psychedelic experience when focused upon.
Also the lsd helped swim clear his head, work out some issues, and feel attuned again with himself and the world, it was the most therapeutic trip next to his enlightened experience on 3.5g of cubes, shot, that helped him re-discover spirituality.
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