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Dark Star, that's great news man! I'm happy for you.
Cepheus, I've been pretty sober the past few months myself, but it wasn't a conscious decision...
More like life has forced me into it. That jealous bastard just doesn't want me to get high anymore.
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Cepheus
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Glad to hear it man, nice and reassuring  .
The problem for me is I always feel so damn retarded and shit after the first week that I just give up.. It feels like I have to go down (further) before I can pick myself back up. I can't remember what its like to have a clear head.
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Quote:
HappyTrippin said:
After about 6 months of sobriety, I finally felt myself growing up into a better man.
I'm starting to discover a lot about myself, and the universe.
If you give life outside drugs a chance, you'll find it more psychedelic than the drugs themself  .
Perhaps you weren't as addicted as I was, but I dont think that matters. For me, all i cared about was myself, and I lost the beauty of the outside world. And now that it's coming back, it's showing me a true beauty side of it.
I might be a little bit "off" these days, and my views have changed a lot, but life is a lot better now that I don't use drugs. I cried a couple nights ago because of how amazed I am that i've come so far. I didn't think i'd get out of it alive.
Good luck to you Cepheus, I know you can do it. Regardless if you have an addiction or not
Man, you must have been on some hardocre shit. For me it's weed, (which I haven't touched in a year almost, for various reasons) 'shrooms and alcohol (which is very infrequently) Most of my drug use only goes as far as drinking every now and again and tripping. (which I'm laying of of for a while) 
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 Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456320 - 04/25/10 08:06 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah, I know the feeling man. You just have to weather the storm and know that things will only get better.
If you just keep with it, invest in being productive and keep pushing the letter those benefits will come quicker than you may expect. The worst thing you can do is give up.
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Luckily I've never suffered a real addiction to anything.. I've had problems with ketamine and problems with mephedrone and I know if I carried on exploring opiates that would be the end of me. I use drugs largely because I have so much free time, not much to do and I guess I'm quite unhappy with where I am (I really don't like university, but I feel it to be a necessary evil) - I hate being so far away from my real friends who have been through just as much shit as me, and my girlfriend, for so much of the year.
I think the problem is I have a tendency to stockpile shit and drugs find me wherever I am. I've gone through so much ketamine and alprazolam here that I actually cannot remember the last semester (and failed everything spectacularly).
But yeah fuck it, I'm tired of pointless self destruction and avoiding my problems through inebriation.
I have a sort of related question, but I don't really know how to ask it; have you regained that "piece of soul" or whatever it is, that opiates seem to take from you? I definitely feel different (emptier) since experimenting with those things.
Thanks for the support people, fuck knows what I'd do without the shroomery.
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HappyTrippin
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus] 1
#12456384 - 04/25/10 08:20 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I have a sort of related question, but I don't really know how to ask it; have you regained that "piece of soul" or whatever it is, that opiates seem to take from you? I definitely feel different (emptier) since experimenting with those things.
Yes. I am in the process of retrieving my soul back. I've transformed myself into a completely different person. My soul lies within nature, and being connected to nature, through plants, meditation and exploration of both inner, and outter worlds. I'm slowly pulling myself back. I used to lack self-confidence and all that, and would turn to others for it. And now I find that self-confidence in my own eyes.
I still don't have any real life friends, but when I have nature, I don't need anyone else. .
Through my ayahuasca experiences, it's shown me what I need to do with my life, and i'm holding that sacred to my heart.
Are you familiar with like energy attracts like energy? I hold that to be true, when i was using heroin. It always managed to find me. Even when I wasn't in the ghetto, i'd have people come up to me at parties whom i've never met and give me free bumps.
If you stay strong and put out a new energy, new energy will be attracted to yours.
No time like now to start a new change in your life, and figure out what you want, and you know intoxication wont necessarily bring that, so that's a great first step .
I've read a couple self help books that did change me a bit.
Living in the light. (can't remember author)
power of now.
Celestine prophecy.
Maybe if you read one of these, it'll help you get direction in your life.
As I said before, feel free to PM me. and I can tell you more about all the obstacles i've crossed and stuff, i'm trying not to derail your thread to much.
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I'm only sober because i'm out of money.
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456428 - 04/25/10 08:29 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I work out, go to meetings everyday, talk to my sponsor everyday, write in a journal, find something to be grateful for each day, I'm starting to write on my first step, pray every morning & every night even though I'm not quite sure what exactly it is that I'm praying to....
Basically all the stuff they teach in rehab & NA. The first 39 of those days were spent in rehab. It's not easy by any means, don't get me wrong....but I'm digging it. It's a trip, it really is, and everyone with some solid time says that it really pays off in the end.
The thing is, you gotta really want it. I came to the end of my road with drugs; there's nothing good left in it for me & they stopped working anyways. I still feel like getting high a lot, but today I have a choice. I tell myself every morning that I failed as a drug user & that just for today, no matter how I feel or what I'm thinking, I won't use....and I stand by it, come hell or high water.
You can do it brother! If you ever need to talk, I'm here for ya. 
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HappyTrippin
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Does AA/NA work for you? It sounds like it does. I liked it at first, but I really don't like going. I guess I just don't want that kind of soberiety, ya know?
I'm glad you're clean, though I don't know you .
I've found means to my own soberiety, and it's working for me.
i'm forced to go to NA/AA though, and I really don't like it. I've met some awesome people who i've came into contact with, but I don't really enjoy going.
Good luck in your sober journey
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456610 - 04/25/10 09:03 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I haven't taken any real drugs since August. I smoked pot around christmas...
I drink maybe 6 beers every 2nd weekend.
Goodluck - it's not so hard. Just need to surround yourself with like minded people who do things other than drugs.
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456631 - 04/25/10 09:06 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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same here haven't drank since January but I intend to stay sober for a long time, maybe for good.
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Dark_Star
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Yeah it does, at least thus far. I'm lucky (or blessed) enough to have come across some really good people in the program that have taken me under their wings & are really helping me out. Some of the meetings are kinda bleh, but for the most part I actually enjoy going these days. I already tried everything else, and nothing's worked.....so this has to. That's just me though. I'm not one of those people that says "this is the only way"...it is for me, but I'm not speaking for anyone else.
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I've found means to my own soberiety, and it's working for me.
That's awesome brother! Stick with it. Coming back to life is a beautiful & amazing journey no matter what road is taking you there.
I wish you much luck in your journey as well.
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456652 - 04/25/10 09:10 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Im staying off the booze and keeping my pot use down to about once a week.
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12456692 - 04/25/10 09:15 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I've been feeling the urge to take a month smokin the herbs myself, but haven't had the balls to post on the shroomery cuz I basically have no will power and all my friends are stoners (go figure....)
I probably couldn't do stone sober, cuz if I'm not smoking weed my booze intake will def go up.
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today is the first day i've been sober in... ??
i plan on staying sober for the next few months, well-
i'll do whatever is given to me for free lol
my main issue is i need to stop spending money haha
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12457345 - 04/25/10 10:58 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Definitely been there with the sobriety thing. It's seriously not as hard as it sounds or feels. The first time I sobered up I thought it was so fucking hard and felt sorry for myself 24/7 and hated everything, but it was only like that because I was making it like that. It was totally my choice to be so miserable about it. Being sober is actually pretty awesome. Over the past few months I've finally been able to find a balance between being sober 24/7 and being high 24/7, and now I'm sober 95% of the time, like someone else said, and I am so fucking happy. You have to fill the void by connecting with some type of spirituality. Meditation and yoga are awesome. I would also highly recommend learning/playing an instrument! My guitar is everything I need. Just find your passions and pursue them and stay grateful for everything you have and find the beauty in everything.
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Oldgregg
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im with you....
i think i might have some mild hppd that i need to let subside.
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Cepheus
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12498412 - 05/03/10 10:16 AM (2 years, 24 days ago) |
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Well this lasted all of a week.. I've spent the last few days playing with phenazepam, getting drunk, smoking and toying with opiates  .
False start... I'll start again after I finish this cup of tea .
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Re: Sobriety Thread. [Re: Cepheus]
#12498427 - 05/03/10 10:19 AM (2 years, 24 days ago) |
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Drugs are bad.. M'kay?
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