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 Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please 
#12275954 - 03/26/10 12:58 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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While walking through the hallway of my college today, I experienced at least 50+ small, white lights hovering above my head and spinning rapidly. I do believe I have HPPD and I have experienced minor perception hallucinations and seen small trails, but I have never experienced anything like this before. Please help me, I do not want to see a psychiatrist yet.
About a month or two ago I had an overwhelming fear that I was becoming a schizophrenic. I had this fear because we were discussing mental disorders in my psych class and I had the delusion that my psychology teacher was somehow trying to trigger schizophrenia in me. These beliefs (which I actually believe were a form of my own projection) then triggered anxiety attacks when I made eye contact with my teacher or other [older, higher ranked] people who I believed were judging me. During one of my anxiety attacks I saw a blue light but it was different from the lights I saw today. The blue light seemed to be flat, like it was part of my vision, while today's lights had depth to them and were spinning around.
Two days ago I started drinking flax seed oil, my diet has changed in the past few weeks to be much more healthy. I've been eating a lot more fruits, vegetables and nuts. About 20-30 feet before I experienced these hallucinations I dropped my pen. I don't know if my change in posture from down to up could have somehow triggered this?
I've been into spirituality a lot recently, and I have been pondering too much about what is out of my comprehension. I seemed to have been getting my life in order very fast lately but this just scared the fucking shit out of me.
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 Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12276003 - 03/26/10 01:07 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm not a psychiatrist but, at least you seem to know that what you are seeing isn't real, I'd guess that is a good sign!
Maybe back off anything you're taking (you didn't say?) for a couple weeks, and if it keeps happening, get down the doctors
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Frinkz]
#12276022 - 03/26/10 01:09 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm not taking anything. The last time I did any drugs was last Friday and that was a combo of alcohol, weed, and salvia.
Also I really want to believe what I am seeing is spirits or aliens or some other shit. But I will not allow those thoughts to sink into my mind. I need some kind of scientific psychological explanation ASAP
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Edited by Enpo (03/26/10 01:10 PM)
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12276077 - 03/26/10 01:17 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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holy balls batman
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Conawaaay]
#12276089 - 03/26/10 01:18 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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GTFO
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12277588 - 03/26/10 05:06 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Not only drug but could be stress related.
Have you been sleeping well lately?
If the body does not get enough sleep it will force itself to sleep/dream in the waking state. Hence producing 'hallucinations'
Just a thought.
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12281228 - 03/27/10 05:58 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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how old are you op?
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: mick]
#12281232 - 03/27/10 06:01 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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That's pretty scary, if your doing any drugs, take a break for awhile.
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: mick]
#12281502 - 03/27/10 09:19 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Recently turned 19
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12281520 - 03/27/10 09:29 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Honestly, what you describe here doesn't sound like schizophrenia. However, it does sound like schizophrenia-related anxiety that possibly triggered a mild psychotic episode. I say possibly because the hallucinations you had might have not even been related, and they might have more to do with HPPD. I've had HPPD and still do, but a while ago it was stronger, and these kinds of lights described by you seem to be very similar to what I usually saw.
You would be surprised how many people hallucinate things without being mentally ill, and how many of them actually think they might have schizophrenia just because they don't know that hallucinations are quite common. The fact that your experience resembled a schizophrenic episode so much (hallucinations + anxiety + paranoid thoughts + delusions), can be easily explained by your fear of schizophrenia, and how the brain sometimes works on collecting all the symptoms and particularities of the thing we fear. Right now you seem to be in a weird spot, because each anxiety attack can trigger paranoid thoughts, which in turn can trigger some hallucinations. Just try to relax, and try not to freak out even if you will be experiencing other anxiety attacks. Instead, let it take you where it wants very much like you do when you're tripping and things aren't going so well.
If you think it will help, try to talk to a CBT therapist and explain them your symptoms, or try talking to your teacher even.
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12282198 - 03/27/10 01:20 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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some people have visions
especially at your age
don't be scared
you'll find the answers within
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Re: Straight up schizophrenic hallucination: I'm terrified, help please [Re: Enpo]
#12282720 - 03/27/10 02:49 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Youre not schizophrenic man, coming from someone who knows a lot about the subject.
Just dont act on those thoughts anymore. Change the direction of your thoughts if you start going through more of that paranoid shit, onto something more productive. Youre cool though.
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