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Anonymous #1
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 Heroin for Suicide   1
#10257806 - 04/29/09 09:12 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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I don't want to go into why.
It doesn't really matter.
Everyone thinks about suicide. A lot of people go through with it.
The thought has been in my head for months. It will NOT go away, at all.
So, I've given in. I've been thinking about how to do it.
I was going to jump off of city hall downtown and let the whole city know. There's an observation deck on the 30th floor that is accessible to the public all hours of the day that the building is open. There are some plastic guards around the stone railings, like shit at a hockey game, but it wouldn't be any kind of hard at all to climb up over them. There's been quite a few people who've committed suicide this way in my city's history.
But I think that would be too messy. And I am waaaaaaaayyyyyyyy too fucking good looking to spoil myself that way.
So on friday I'm going to buy a bundle of heroin.
I always get good stuff, really potent shit.
I'm going to cook up the whole bundle at once and finally bring my end about. It's been a long time coming, and it just needs to happen.
I feel so wonderfully relieved now that I've finally decided.
I'm actually a fuck of a lot happier now as I go throughout my days, that I know it will all finally be over with.
And it will be such a blissful way to go out.
As I'm rushing rushing rushing rushing into oblivion, a rush so intense none on this earth know it, my breathing will slow and slow and slow and slow until it stops.
I'll be so high that I won't even notice, and so high that it'll be absolutely painless.
I'm actually pretty excited about it.
I'm so happy it's finally over with.
I'm so happy that I'm finally over with.
I can't wait.
I'm waiting until friday because I just need to wrap up a few more things, say my goodbyes (without being too obvious), give my important things away, tell the people I love that I love them, etc, and write up my suicide note.
I'm so happy that it's all done!       
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Anonymous #2
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Want a cookie?
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Anonymous #3
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interesting
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Anonymous #1
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Cookie, no cookie, it doesn't matter anymore.
I am in the weirdest of headspaces.
NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE BECAUSE I KNOW THERE IS NOTHING ELSE TO WORRY ABOUT.
My end is nigh, I am ECSTATIC about it.
I can't be touched, insulted, put down, nothing. I am floating on Cloud 9, and it is absolutely impossible to take me down because I know that in the next two days, I will stand at the side of my God, and prepare to do my work on the otherside, away from everything here on this Earth.
My time to go has come, and so I must.
Two days.
It shall be an epic day for the entire world.
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Anonymous #4
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If you do it, don't half-ass it. Do it right.
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Anonymous #5
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Quote:
Anonymous #1 said:
But I think that would be too messy. And I am waaaaaaaayyyyyyyy too fucking good looking to spoil myself that way.
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Anonymous #6
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sorry and hope you had good years here
who knows where ur going next
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Anonymous #5
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Anonymous #7
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Wherever he's going, I doubt there's heroin there.
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Anonymous #8
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Anonymous #6 said:
sorry and hope you had good years here
who knows where ur going next
You'll just be back, again and again and again and again, until you finally wake up in the dream.
Set an intention that your soul doesn't fracture and freak out...when you come back, you want a good start with conscious parents and not just random wherever-the-fuck you end up because you're dazed when you cross. Better yet, choose exactly the kind of parents you want first and keep that idea firm in your head...should help. check out birthasweknowit.com for an idea of what you can look forward to, if you keep your shit together when you leave that body.
Heroin would def be my exit of choice if I couldn't manage to will myself out of my body when I'm ready to go. But hellafino where to get it or where you could...
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Anonymous #1
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lol @ #7, touche
i'm not worried about heroin being there or not
i was never really into heroin all that much here... i mean, yea i've done it, but it was never something i was into
i liked it the times i did it, but never made it a habit
seems like the ideal way to go out though :thumbsup:
and #4, i never half ass ANYTHING, and i am super excited about this, so half ass it is the last thing i'd do... i can't wait for this moment, to feel myself ending and beginning all at once
#5, i'd post pics of me, but i did this in the anonymous section of the site for a reason. i have tons of threads all over this website been here for a few years, and some of them have pics of me in them. i don't want people to know who i am because i don't want to be stopped. i only bothered to post because i'm so excited about it that i couldn't keep it to myself, and i don't want to tell anyone i know IRL because like i said, i don't want anyone to try and stop me... i'll post pics of me on friday as i put the needle in my arm, hows that?
i can't wait to get where i'm going
it's gonna be great, it really is
soy muerrrrrrrtoooooooooooooooooo mudda fuggz
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Anonymous #9
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This thread is like an Epiphany, at first I felt sorry for you but than I realized that I should have this attitude about life. Fuck everything, it's all meaningless- no point in ever worrying- fuck drama, just live life like you are going to kill yourself in a few days. but I personally would rather not choose suicide, because SHIT- once your dead that i s it..............................
and if there is an after life I doubt suicide will lead to good path.
Enjoy the heroin- sure that will be pure euphoria  def post some pics too since you're gonna die anyway
why not do some weird shit while your are od'ing - like run naked around bars and jerk off on random chicks  - don't waste your last days
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Anonymous #5
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If I knew I was gonna die in a few days, I'd probably make out with my little sister, and see where things go from there. 
Thank God I don't have any suicidal tendencies! 
...yet! 
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Anonymous #10
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Good luck on the next part of your life that is death. Mayby post what city you live in so we can read the story afterwards?
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Anonymous #5
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Anonymous #5 said:
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But I think that would be too messy. And I am waaaaaaaayyyyyyyy too fucking good looking to spoil myself that way.
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Anonymous #7
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I wish I knew you IRL so I could score some skagg off you before you died.
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Anonymous #11
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I've tried comitting suicide twice and failed - hope you get it right THIS time.
I can imagine how great it feels to know that soon you will return home, or go somewhere new.
You're living the dream, man
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Anonymous #12
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don't do it. there's still some good times to be had. i say, if you are seriously resolved to off yourself, you might want to go out and blow all your dough on world travelling and abusing drugs...but that's just me.
don't kill yaself k?
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Anonymous #9
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anon 1 do you have any LSD by any chance? i could use some and if you're gonna die anyway then  
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Anonymous #13
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its not as bad as you make it out to be.
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