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 Patisotagami
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 On Umphrey's McGee, 2c-e, and Morphing.
#10066914 - 03/29/09 01:16 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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First of all, thank you to all who sent good vibes last night when I was coming down... It was a particularly hard one, with much discomfort, but the positive thoughts helped greatly.
This is a long trip report, yet it somehow barely scratches the surface of the experience... If you really want to know what it is like, take 2c-e yourself. It is wonderful!
On to the report:
On thursday, I drove to Kansas with my friend E to see Umphrey's McGee. The show was amazing, and the opener, The Ugly Suit, was great as well. I just bought a t-equalizer shirt and was wearing it front row center. On my way out the doors after the show, one of the guitarists, Colin, came up to me. He told me my shirt was sick, and that it distracted the hell out of him during their set. We chatted for a bit and then he put me and my friend "R" on the guest list for Friday's show in St Louis. Back at R's house, the 6 of us staying there that night all smoked salvia, except for my friend E. That night, I stayed at R's house in Kansas, and then the next day we drove to St. Louis.
Friday, Umphrey's played an unbelievable show. Unfortunately, it was pouring rain and the traffic on I-70 was ridiculous... stand still... and we didn't get to see the opener, and we even missed the opening song of Umphrey's. It was fine, though, because the rest of the night made up for it! I took a pill of molly from a nice man with dreads, and that really kicked up my night to close to heaven.
After the show, R, H, and myself went to the afterparty at the bar next door. It was fun, but nothing amazing. That night, R and I stayed at my buddy Z's house in St. Louis. I ordered late-night pizza and the delivery man was very nice. I tipped him 10 dollars because it was 3 in the morning and he liked my light-up t shirt. Plus I figured it would make his night  .
Saturday, after waking up and eating a delicious breakfast made by Z's mom, R and I drove back to my house in mid-missouri. My roommates were not home for the day, and I decided to show R my house before he drove back to Kansas. I just set up my closet to grow mushrooms, and wanted him to check out my work. We were chilling, talking about things, and then I remembered I had 2c-e, 2c-i, and 2c-t-2 that my friend C had sent me a month or so ago. I had been reading up on them, especially 2c-e, but was too scared to try it by myself. To this, R readily said, "Let's take it, we don't have anything else to do today". i was more than happy to oblige. THough a little nervous, I got 2 glasses of water, into which we mixed the 2c-e and cool aid... and we drank them.
Here's where the trip really starts:
Drug: 2C-E
Dose: 15mg
Method: Mixed in a cup of water and cool aid
I can't report on times, because time moved both incredibly slow and fast at the same time, and I had no idea where it went while on 2c-e.
After taking it, we walked around the house waiting for it to kick in. It took about an hour, but the first signs that something was different for me was that I was looking at a cowboy hat on my living room table, and all of a sudden I could see every stitch on it... not only could I SEE the stitch, though, but the patterns were moving! They were morphing. One segment would get lighter, like my eyes had sliders for brightness and contrast, and just by thinking, I could change one or both of them. It was scary; I wasn't ready for it. So i looked away, at a picture I took in Israel of a bird flying over a bench and chair.
As I was looking at it, I could see the mountains clearly in the background, I closed my eyes and could smell the way the air was... Then I noticed, when my eyes were closed, that I was able to still see things in my mind's eye. It didn't matter what my physical eyes were doing... because I could see things no matter what. Nothing I could do would make that change. I saw red, green, and blue the most vividly. They were outlining things that didn't exist except in the blackness behind my eyelids. The images were beautiful, peaceful, and dancing with my mind. Sometimes I would see faces, or shapes... All the colors that made up light were shattered into their individual constituents upon reaching my eyes...
But then I opened them again. i had to go to the bathroom from drinking all the water initially. As I was urinating, I looked at the wall I had seen hundreds of times prior to that moment. This time was different, though-- The minute patterning in the wallpaper was MORPHING.
My bathroom wall:
Morphing! There is no other word to explain it. Not even on mushrooms did I get such amazing shape-shifting and tonal-changing. Think of one pattern, and then having those contrast sliders in your mind changed, and then all of a sudden you can see deeper; more vividly; into what the creator of that wallpaper was trying to say. Someone created the intricate patterning on it... they probably devoted a lot of time to it... and now here I was, able to fully comprehend and appreciate the beauty of it.
We had to go outside. It was rainy, cold... what some would call miserable outside. I had to be out in nature though. The sun was setting, so it was probably around 5 or 6pm. R and I took off our shoes and socks, put on hats and coats, and walked outside. The INSTANT I walked outside, I became aware of my brain altering the levels of black and white, adjusting my perception to "outside vision". It was beautiful the way I was able to see my mind at work... feeling that I was a part of the system, and knowing that all i was able to do was to observe. We walked around outside, loving nature and feeling as though she (nature) was filling me up with love... allowing me to see the true beauty and infinite complexity that humans will never understand. We played in the mud, and saw amazing morphing patterns in it.
Back inside, we flew on magic carpets (shuffling our feet on my blankets) up to the bathroom. There, we got mud all in the bathtub as we rinsed our feet off. The mud made gorgeous fractals in the bathtub, which also kept morphing in front of our eyes... showing us different things with every millisecond. Contrast going up, seeing intense shades of white and brown and yellow, and then contrast going way down, and seeing everything come together as one. So we left the mud be for then.
The trip was also very location dependent. The ambience of one room, where Sound Tribe Sector 9 was playing loudly with whiteish-blue light coming in the windows was far different than the next room over, which was filled with the essence of slightly quieter music and red light coming through the red blinds. The purple blinds in my living room created yet a different ambience, which my brain registered and reflected in its mood.
Often, I would find myself getting anxious. I said to R that I had an itch I just couldn't scratch... it was like the feeling of being right on the edge of yawning but never having the yawn come. When this happened, as it did several times throughout the trip, I started feeling nauseous.. though I never threw up thanks to ondansatron (Zofran) I had taken at the beginning of the trip.
Any time I felt nauseous, or negative vibes came over me, all I had to do was walk upstairs, change the song, or walk outside/into a differently lit room, and I would feel beautifully warm again.
In my house, there are two cats... and we just kept wondering about them and playing with them. The patterns in their fur was exquisitely mind-blowing. Indescribable. The cats just walk around all day observing things. I have no way of knowing what their consciousness is like, but we tossed around the idea that maybe they were seeing things like this all the time, and that's why they love strings, hanging things, and just staring at patterns. What a great life it is to be a loved cat.
The trip lasted about 7 hours until I fell asleep with the help of an Ambien and a lot of marijuana. Coming down from this trip was very hard. I think I had more trouble when coming off my first mushroom trip, but this was a close second as far as difficult/uncomfortable comedowns go. I had terrible anxiety, was very indecisive for a while, and had horrible bodily discomfort. I felt expansive... like my brain, with everything it learned, was trying to squeeze back into a tiny little skull, but it wasn't fitting as well as it used to... R and I smoked some herb, and I took some Valerian Root extract. After that, things calmed down enough for me to sit down and watch the movie Baraka. About an hour into it, I had to go lay down in my bed. So R and I said good night, he slept downstairs on the couch, and I went up to my bedroom. I took an Ambien and laid in bed waiting for it to kick in. There were thoughts of "will I ever be the same again?" and "How will I possibly explain this to anyone?" But today, waking up to a beautiful day out, I realized that part of the amazing thing about this life is that there is SO much to experience that I can just keep living. I experienced a fantastic voyage, and gained much knowledge about myself and Life as humans can know it.
There are many parts of this trip that I have yet to process. My mind moved so fast and learned/observed so much that I could not possibly write everything here right now. That would take months at the least. Below are some more pictures I took while I was in it. Enjoy. I recommend 2C-E to anyone ready to discover more about themselves and Life. I suggest taking it where you will not encounter anyone who is NOT on the drug. In addition, I HIGHLY recommend having a friend who is taking it with you. Lastly, you will probably want to walk around and be in nature at least for part of it... but you will want to feel safe. So an empty house or a camping trip would be ideal for 2C-E, in my opinion. If you have any questions, feel free to comment or PM me.
Playing around with long exposures and my rave sticks at night:
My calendar I was staring at for quite some time:
One of the entries I made in my journal that night:
Theme of this trip:
Life is infinitely weirder than it wants us to believe.
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 Re: On Umphrey's McGee, 2c-e, and Morphing. [Re: Patisotagami]
#10070392 - 03/29/09 08:45 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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First I want to say, "all my life I have under-estimated my self conscious, I have never met anyone like myself, and hopefully have gained insight to whom I want to be."
The start of an amazing experience.
Thursday, March 26
I had woken up early to go to class, biked in from clinton lake to the university. It was warm and breezy. Good set up for a perfect day. They road along, in and out of giving directions to my two friends, Alpha-S and Mr. E. They both were coming in town for a show that night. After sending out a mass invite to the show eating we had arrived at the show. As we were walking up to Mass St. we looked in to the window of JB Stouts. And its the band, picture or no picture. No picture, after a short wave and a peace sign, we were on our way. Got inside and instantly got a little higher. It was me Alpha-S, Mr. E, Sauce, and Faux. The opening band, different mixed with mello-tones and Hard Rock. Bang and just like that open done, and on to the next. Umphreys McGee coming on stage. And just like it had started it ended. Amazing, complex, and collected. The Joy of sound coming together and word melting in sync. I say good bye to Faux, he leave and heads to the house. As we head up the stairs we stop, Opening Bands lead singer standing on the floor. "Hello, you did great." - "Oh Thanks," he turns to Alpha-S. "Dude, your T-Shirt totally threw me off base." Alpha-S wearing a light up Visualizer T-Shirt. We get invited to tomorrows show in St. Louis. Accepted. Alpha-S, Mr. E, and I get out to eat. Delicious every bite, melted in my mouth. We head back to the house. Movies and Sleep.
The Mix
Friday, March 27
Pumped, for the first time in a long time. I eat breakfast. Alpha-S, Mr. E, Faux, and I eat. Faux, heads to work and we head to Columbia. Alpha-S drops Mr. E off. I get stuck in traffic. Running to a little late, We head to St. Louis. Alpha-S and I, hit the Dug-Out. Rollin on the highway. I call Bandit, she answers and accepts an invite to tonight's show. Hour later we arrive, inside we meet Z. We shuffle through the crowed Alpha-S finds his flavor for the night. Another night moving to the groove. Serendipitous pleasure. Head to the after party grab a few drinks and crash at Z's parents house. Sleep.
Splendor to the Splendid
Saturday, March 28
We woke up, yet again spoiled with Z's moms cooking. Another breakfast. We hit the road as we caravan back to Como. Although the trip with Alpha-S was short it was filled with conversation. Conversation that I have not had in a long while. We get to the house. "Oh did you want to see my house?" Alpha-S asked. Of course I did, after all the talk of his new operations with Mushrooms I had to see his handy work. He shows me his room. After walking around his house, more conversation arrives, this time about new experiences and naked festivals. He starts to unpack and he opens his box, he shows me some experimental drugs he had gotten from his jaunt to Israel. The perfect dose. He reveals to me he has not taken them yet, he didn't want to take them alone. He offers. Hesitantly, I ask a few questions. What is it, How is it made, What is it made of? I, naive, first timer accepted. We mix with water, drink. Directions: Best to smoke before hand. Done. Talk of Baraka and Huxley. Interested, I look into the mirror, and I am taller than usual. "Play, "The Dream Of The Dolphin'," Alpha-S suggest. I put it on, I start to feel the gravity shift. I feel like moving and cant sit completely still. I move down stairs, Alpha-S brings the mini music player we now have Soundtribe Sector 9 playing down stairs. Laughing. Am I really feeling this.
Bang.
Shadows emerge from complete light, my eyes compensate. I add light. I add light, my eyes light up the room. I sit down lay my head on a pillow the pillow it moves like a feather moving back and forth through the wind. I stand up, put the pillow down walk back upstairs. Things all around me moving. Alpha-S is in his room standing in front of the desk, he moves to his bed. I sit on his chair. Looking behind him, his wall linen spins around itself. Words can not explain. Both I and Alpha-S are on the path. Not even on mushrooms or the one time i supposedly had E, have I had ever seen this. This wisdom and power, yet I am a baby, and cannot yet grasp the control. Alpha-S and I walk around the house everything bursting into life. What is this new world we live in. How? I am typing into my phone half sensed sentences. I can not explain. I recollect the movement within the pictures. I am aware of its existence now. I do not recognize time. I feel all my senses. I touch to see. I listen to feel. I see to have explained. I smell the clean air from an apple I inhale deep I gain a better presents of the apple. I bite into two foods that night. The other was a bagel pure from nature. We sit on the couch. My head collides with soft and fluffy. A beat comes from the animal a soft meow. I feel comfort. I look into the cats eyes they move with the same beat as the pictures and colors. The cat and I right there became in tune with each other. She was the answer. Life, something so small. The cat showed me. Alpha-S and I wondered out side. We let the cats out. I followed the one that gave me the answer. She wonders around the outside house. She looks at me. She has independent thought her movement is random. She licks the side of the house the brick was collecting water, what would I feel if I licked the side of the house? I follow her to a wooded area. There she showed me two toilets. Love toilets on top of one another. I found the passion in something so dirty. The trees cover the toilets. The trees break apart, they become leaves and twigs independently one "machine" attached to a network of other living "machines" going where what is its purpose. Analyze. I can not. Another question unanswered stomach became upset. Rain, it makes the mud. It breaks apart the soil it turns into mud cracks the cracks become alive. Mud, it has no purpose. Rain delivers the nutrition, maybe things don't need a purpose. Where is it going what is at the end? We step into the mud no shoes, no socks, naked feet. Does the cat have any goals how is it to live with out an end. It seeps into my feet, surrounding my toes. Wet yet free. Alive. No out of body experiences yet everything I looked at had its own out of body experience was it I that could set them free? My mind wonders it takes its affects to the fullest. My mind crosses Huxley I go inside. The mood changes I am no longer apart of nature, it has gotten dark inside the house. I lay down in front of the fish tank. The ceiling there is a light on the ceiling. I turned it on. Excitement rushes in. My mind not weak, but controlled. I settle. Alpha-S shares his journal I try to make sense of it all. I drew a picture, that I can't explain. Sounds of Baraka in the background. We move to the bathroom which we had previously destroyed from our mud expedition. We clean, Alpha-S showers. I stare blankly into a glow stick. I find myself asking a lot of questions and coming to sense of my own self. I find goals that I want to achieve of myself. I make them. I feel good about where I want to be headed? I answer questions about myself I was to afraid of asking. My shower. Alone in the shower visions in my head have faded until I relax and once again realize they are there. I have gained knowledge few have obtained. I have seen a world few have seen. I have felt the way few have felt. I feel guilty, as the woman once took the apple from the tree I have joined a circle, a circle people look at in a different light. Not the same way I and Alpha-S see the circle. A circle that is not allowed. Will I be forgiven? I realize. This was my choice. I control the situation. Happy, I step out of the shower. We smoke again, good for the come down. We sit on the couch. A Tree falls Alpha-S walks to bed. Wish bid each other good night and give each other good vibes. I a human was able to slow down what we persive as time. I could hear the beat inside a beat. I can see an object move slowly. It slowly pass to dark. I have Become Alpha-Human, Enlightened, I have found self-consciousness.
Even still the world perpetually moves.
Mud: The moment you step in it you become a part of it, yet the moment you forget about it, it just washes away.
Alone in the light it is cold, but where there are two, comes warmth.
2C-E
As a recommendation I recommend smoking herb on your way up, water, small amounts of food, a place you feel safe, a place that you have all rights to (you may want to touch things, take pictures off a wall, move something.), don't do it alone its nice to talk to someone, try and stay away from people who are not ready for it, take all day.
In the end when you come down know you are stronger than it and that it is only a mere tool, good vibes are in your good hands, drink water and smoke. Try to sleep lay down and come to ones peace and relax.
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