! Words cannot express how truly grateful I am for your guys' responses. I feel like I have just handled and resolved a critical aspect of my life. I am incredibly appreciative for what all of you had to say especially Akira and Mr. Reedz. Your words have trul;y stuck with me and you guys have nailed my situation spot on, and I realize now, that it is a fact(now that im reflecting on it) that when I get high nowadays I become less confident and more submissive and people can subconsciously sense my projection of those feelings, and they act accordingly. seriously words can't express how thankful I am right now and I feel I can walk on through life now, with new knowledge about myself and what type of person I, for whatever reason, become when I get high.

I have come to the conclusion that I am going to give mary jane a break for a good long while now, and just drink and shroom every once in a while. Because I have smoked weed hundreds of times in the past and had no problem with it, I feel that in the future me adn MJ will be able to reunite again one day, when the time is right, and not have to deal with the paranoid thoughts and inclination to become less confident and more submissive.

I feel very proud of myself for taking charge of my situation and getting what I wanted, some answers to my crippling situation. You guys heped me out tremendously and I can honestly say I don't think I could've done it withiout you guys. I hope you guys will recieve some very good karma for what you've done for me today.

i don't know what else to say but thank you all again, and may god bless you all