And I’ve got a Physics test next week on the day of my Birthday.

I don’t have anyone to hang out with on my birthday anyway so I guess it doesn’t really matter.

Maaaan im down on life atm. I’ve been working hard on these classes but they’re still kicking my ass. I find myself questioning whether or not im smart enough to go to school, and it hurts me to say that because I like to believe im intelligent. But I really don’t feel that way lately.

I’m about to be 23 and I still don’t feel like I have a path, you’d think at my age I’d have some stuff figured out but im lost as ever.

I keep dreaming of this girl I use to know. “Use to” being key here. I don’t know her any more. She’s vary happy about that, but lately im rather sad about it.

When she shows up in my dreams it’s refreshing. But then I wake up and remember the downward spiral that led to the way things are now. And that just makes me feel like shit. But she’s happy now, so im content with the way things are between us.

I don’t know what im going to do about my life; I’m not content with any aspect of it. And depression has been getting the best of me lately. I thought the xanax was helping but maybe its doing the opposite.