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 aleksei
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 I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure
#8373990 - 05/07/08 05:17 PM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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This topic is only to feedback, people who have psychosis, or are trancedental master, have made a breakthrough and are EXPERIENCED users only, messages of hope or people telling me to do things like searh a psiquiatric arent welcome, please im suffering a disease and im afraind of whats going to happen to me, so please i dont want your feedback, it will NOT HELP ME, just read, and dont comment what you think if you havent done breakthrough or halready got psychosis. thanks
Im was trying to do a brekthrough, from the past two years, i a very gentli NON-INTENTIONED guy, when i was 15 years old i was take a atropine pills caled (benflogin) its a anti-inflamatory drug that people use by recreational effects that time i decided to do this drug i decided to take 10pills and drink a little to see the effwect but a guy said you got to drink a lot and do 20 pills, so i did , i even dont know how to drunk and i got in alchoolic coma and 20pills, i went to hospital and the other day i was wasted, since that day had paranoia, and i think that is that make me have a future psychosis today, now im 24 years and from the past two years im trying to do a breakthrough using acid, i was doing good, fighting against my internal evils and getting more in contact with god, one day i almost did a breakthrough, i ws getting higher and higher and i was almost there i was so happy tahat i decided to call my mom, hey mom this is the most happy day of y life, she said ARE YOU USING DRUGS and starts to yelling me on telefone, and so she sen d me to hell, i fall in a big bad trip, so 2 weeks later a decided to try again i was geting higher in the beggining i was listen to pter tosh music you drink champaign and laugh hahaha, and i thinked i can drink champaign i do it often and i not rich so no problem, and a was listening to tahat msic, i dont know what happened but when i said i do champaign im not rich and i do it often, i fall in a big bad fucking trip, so two weeks later i decided to try it again, somethin strange happened, i saw a fruit on a tree while i was on acid, the trip just was beggining and i said i gonna eat that fruit, when i came near the tree and cath the fruiit when i look the he feruit it was full of worms, i feel that something wanna enter in my soul when a have a bad feeling looking to the fruit full of worms, so i went to vacation and three weeks later i was tryin to breakthrough again, i went tere i feel so good most part of trip was healing and in tghe final the clouds come and i feel little dark but it was doing well, when i decid to go home i decided first i decided to go to the water fall when i was takin g a bath the security guard cme around my back while i diidnt see him , he grab hi s gun and he screamed HEY when i look i think it was someone that was going to kill me i saw hi s face and only after i realize that was a security guard, we grab his gun and he prepared to kill me, something like that, i feel all my energy from one day of hard work going to him, i called my mom and he tlekd to her and say ITS ALL NORMAL HERE, he was scared but its normal, and he went away, 1 month later was me trying to go to nature again, now i was on shrooms i was very upset for dont do breakthrough and i think the secret was cry for my life, i took the shrooms and start to cry (i wasnt crying) GOD THE EVILS ARE STOLING MY SOUL I WILL NOT PERMIT, 30 min crying , today i think i forced my cry and i shouldnt force it, suddenl;y the sun become black, head some voices of evils saying CRY MORE AND YOU WILL REALLY CRY, that i felt that an evil spirit jumped and enetred in my soul, and after that day, i think was die, after that day i cant see more jim morrison face or jimi hendrix face no more, the paper that comes with the cd )but the evil is in place its a evil laye r skin, now when i listen to sound i fell that is a evil spiirit in th eplace o f the singer just putting me down, so i cannot hear to music, i saw evil faces and pigs on the clouds, i always be a good guy all my life, i whne to psychiatric he said i got a psychosis, and i taking zyprexa now, but dont works, im just feeling this layer skin is just growing, it is substitute my beatifull colored reality , for a evil dark one, and i need some help i gonna do an ayahuasca with shaman next week to see if i can take this shit of me, im afraid to get worst, i feel just like a people ho sell his soul to the devil, with teh evil energy around me , i dont like it, it seems it wanna buy my soul by offering me hell energy, but i dont want it, i dont jknow what t do please help.. i dont wanna go to hell, i dont like this energy PLEASE HELP
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8374097 - 05/07/08 05:48 PM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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Wow, I read the whole thing and that is heavy.
My advice is: Zyprexa is very bad stuff, I think you need to look into whether or not it is absolutely necessary that you take it. It could leave you in worse shape than before you started taking it.
Try staying away from psychedelics (AND psychotropic pharmaceuticals like Zyprexa) and lead a balanced life with a healthy diet, plenty of sleep and time for reflection.
Tripping harder is not going to do much for you at this point. I really suggest facing your life situation head on right now and dealing with some things.
Everything's going to turn out for you, just turn down the volume a little bit and venture inside yourself to find out what's really going on
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8376397 - 05/08/08 03:11 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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Dude, your unintelligible style of writing hurts my head like nails on a chalkboard hurt my eats. People like you make me feel stupid and wrong for defending drugs, drug use, and drug users.
Tell me, did you speak/write like this before you started using drugs, or after?
In any case, man, I feel really sorry for you because you are in a hole that you may probably never escape from. You are in a place where if you act happy, then you get negative feedback from your peers, and where being miserable and psychotic is the only way people will accept you. Tough shit man, I suggest doing yoga, like right now. Yoga is the answer to all life's problems.
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8376412 - 05/08/08 03:20 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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That is the longest run-on sentence I have ever seen.
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8376560 - 05/08/08 05:51 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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If the zyprexa isn't working tell your psychiatrist and they can change your medication, hopefully you will get one which works. I'm speaking from experience, they gave me one type of anti psychotic which didn't work, i told the psychiatrist that there was little change in my condition and she gave me a new one called Solian. Within a week of taking it i was feeling better. Those things are a medical miracle, you can literally feel your self coming back together, and after the hell of psychosis its a beautiful feeling. Most of them have side effects, Solian made me impotent which sucked and made me shake really badly, but once you stop taking them the side effects stop and your back to normal.
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: Poid]
#8376618 - 05/08/08 06:58 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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The dude's asking for help, and sounds like he might be tripping or out of it right now, why would you critique him on bad paragraph structure?
And what would lead you to say something as unintelligent and wrong as "you are in a hole that you may probably never escape from?" Many of us have been there and have come back from it, some of us several times. It's pretty hard to imagine a less informed post than yours.
OP, pm sent.
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aleksei
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: DimensionX]
#8376622 - 05/08/08 06:59 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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i dont speak enlish very well im not from USA
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AroundtheSon
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8376682 - 05/08/08 07:42 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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Dude, stop doing drugs. You cannot find anything out using drugs, that you can't find out sober.
Your brain needs a rest. Stop feeding it chemicals.
BTW: Your not going to hell. 
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old mushmellow
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: AroundtheSon]
#8376694 - 05/08/08 07:47 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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You must stop using hallucinogens without proper guidance.
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NiamhNyx
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8376700 - 05/08/08 07:49 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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No more drugs, yoga, healthy eating habits, meditation, and talking to someone (like a counsellor who will listen attentively, ask appropriate questions and have generally pretty apt insight) are all pretty helpful approaches to healing.
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Poid
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8377665 - 05/08/08 01:38 PM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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Quote:
aleksei said:
i dont speak enlish very well im not from USA
Oh, no wonder....
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HumanTruth.org - essential truth about humanity
Biology of Kundalini - A Science and Protocol of Spiritual Alchemy
Educate-Yourself.org - Natural Healing Therapies, Hidden Science, the New World Order
John Taylor Gatto - Challenging the Myths of Modern Schooling
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Poid
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: Disco Cat]
#8377677 - 05/08/08 01:40 PM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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Quote:
Disco Cat said:
The dude's asking for help, and sounds like he might be tripping or out of it right now, why would you critique him on bad paragraph structure?
And what would lead you to say something as unintelligent and wrong as "you are in a hole that you may probably never escape from?" Many of us have been there and have come back from it, some of us several times. It's pretty hard to imagine a less informed post than yours.
OP, pm sent.
It's not merely "bad paragraph" structure, it's the overall vibe of the post that I'm concerned about.
Look at the words MAY and PROBABLY and you may probably understand what I wrote for what it's worth.
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World Mind Society - Dedicated to the progressive enlightenment of our species, through the mediums of education, meditation and the employment of group mind force.
HumanTruth.org - essential truth about humanity
Biology of Kundalini - A Science and Protocol of Spiritual Alchemy
Educate-Yourself.org - Natural Healing Therapies, Hidden Science, the New World Order
John Taylor Gatto - Challenging the Myths of Modern Schooling
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: Poid]
#8386376 - 05/10/08 06:06 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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dude, you are fine. heaven and hell are just good and bad experiences. if you want my opinion, the drugs will cause more problems. your mind is running haywire but it can and probably will clear up, with or without drugs. been there. meditate for at least an hour each day and see how you feel after a week.
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Re: I got psychosis after a mushroom trip help to find the cure [Re: aleksei]
#8386500 - 05/10/08 06:36 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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aleksei said:
This topic is only to feedback, people who have psychosis, or are trancedental master, have made a breakthrough and are EXPERIENCED users only, messages of hope or people telling me to do things like searh a psiquiatric arent welcome, please im suffering a disease and im afraind of whats going to happen to me, so please i dont want your feedback, it will NOT HELP ME, just read, and dont comment what you think if you havent done breakthrough or halready got psychosis. thanks
Im was trying to do a brekthrough, from the past two years, i a very gentli NON-INTENTIONED guy, when i was 15 years old i was take a atropine pills caled (benflogin) its a anti-inflamatory drug that people use by recreational effects that time i decided to do this drug i decided to take 10pills and drink a little to see the effwect but a guy said you got to drink a lot and do 20 pills, so i did , i even dont know how to drunk and i got in alchoolic coma and 20pills, i went to hospital and the other day i was wasted, since that day had paranoia, and i think that is that make me have a future psychosis today, now im 24 years and from the past two years im trying to do a breakthrough using acid, i was doing good, fighting against my internal evils and getting more in contact with god, one day i almost did a breakthrough, i ws getting higher and higher and i was almost there i was so happy tahat i decided to call my mom, hey mom this is the most happy day of y life, she said ARE YOU USING DRUGS and starts to yelling me on telefone, and so she sen d me to hell, i fall in a big bad trip, so 2 weeks later a decided to try again i was geting higher in the beggining i was listen to pter tosh music you drink champaign and laugh hahaha, and i thinked i can drink champaign i do it often and i not rich so no problem, and a was listening to tahat msic, i dont know what happened but when i said i do champaign im not rich and i do it often, i fall in a big bad fucking trip, so two weeks later i decided to try it again, somethin strange happened, i saw a fruit on a tree while i was on acid, the trip just was beggining and i said i gonna eat that fruit, when i came near the tree and cath the fruiit when i look the he feruit it was full of worms, i feel that something wanna enter in my soul when a have a bad feeling looking to the fruit full of worms, so i went to vacation and three weeks later i was tryin to breakthrough again, i went tere i feel so good most part of trip was healing and in tghe final the clouds come and i feel little dark but it was doing well, when i decid to go home i decided first i decided to go to the water fall when i was takin g a bath the security guard cme around my back while i diidnt see him , he grab hi s gun and he screamed HEY when i look i think it was someone that was going to kill me i saw hi s face and only after i realize that was a security guard, we grab his gun and he prepared to kill me, something like that, i feel all my energy from one day of hard work going to him, i called my mom and he tlekd to her and say ITS ALL NORMAL HERE, he was scared but its normal, and he went away, 1 month later was me trying to go to nature again, now i was on shrooms i was very upset for dont do breakthrough and i think the secret was cry for my life, i took the shrooms and start to cry (i wasnt crying) GOD THE EVILS ARE STOLING MY SOUL I WILL NOT PERMIT, 30 min crying , today i think i forced my cry and i shouldnt force it, suddenl;y the sun become black, head some voices of evils saying CRY MORE AND YOU WILL REALLY CRY, that i felt that an evil spirit jumped and enetred in my soul, and after that day, i think was die, after that day i cant see more jim morrison face or jimi hendrix face no more, the paper that comes with the cd )but the evil is in place its a evil laye r skin, now when i listen to sound i fell that is a evil spiirit in th eplace o f the singer just putting me down, so i cannot hear to music, i saw evil faces and pigs on the clouds, i always be a good guy all my life, i whne to psychiatric he said i got a psychosis, and i taking zyprexa now, but dont works, im just feeling this layer skin is just growing, it is substitute my beatifull colored reality , for a evil dark one, and i need some help i gonna do an ayahuasca with shaman next week to see if i can take this shit of me, im afraid to get worst, i feel just like a people ho sell his soul to the devil, with teh evil energy around me , i dont like it, it seems it wanna buy my soul by offering me hell energy, but i dont want it, i dont jknow what t do please help.. i dont wanna go to hell, i dont like this energy PLEASE HELP
Hello my friend. I am sorry you are feeling so bad. I have gone through similar experiences and today i feel great, yesterday i felt great, the past year i have been feeling mostly good. but before this i felt like you in many ways.
First I see a pattern- you get really high and you crash and you feel like your in 'hell'. All your energy leaves you, you feel drained. If you want to be always high like a hawk youre going to have to land sometime. The higher the high the lower the low usually my friend. So you are trying to get to somewhere else other than here. Youre not happy Now. This present moment is Hell, but sometime, you think, in the future heaven awaits. And you think taking drugs or drinking alcahol will permanently land you in this heaven?
How often are you drinking. Remeber alcahol is a depresant, weed can be a depressant.
There are many people who talk about experiencing heaven on earth. Yes people who take lsd and such talk about expericing this during the trip, but not forever. There are people who talk about expereicing total bliss for eternity. These people have worked on themselves alot- not fought themselves- observed themselves, observed their mind and the way it fucntions. but its not so simple as taking something and you end all suffering- no. You have to consciouslly work on yourself my friend.
Really all this talk about the devil and god youre creating. You are just part of the Universe. The whole Universe is made of vibrations, even your thoughts are vibrations. Anything you hold in your head is the kind of experience you attract to yourself. So you know this inteleectually you can change your whole life by being positive, but now you must experience it. And how to expreience it? Just observe yourself as you are, no as you wish to be. not as your dream, your fantasy youre creating in your head. Even Bob Marley said "forever erase your fantasy". So just observe your thoughts, dont even try to change the evil ones, dont repress them and dont express them just observe and this is where the transformation will occur. The 'evil' stays because you dont accept it, the minute you accept it it will transform. It doesnt matter what it is, what matters is if you are accepting it. Take a step back from all this madness thats occuring, why are you doing this? You have to stop blaming anything outside yourself for the way you feel. The evil spirit stuff is just a whole projection of your own mind(ego).
I really had maybe physchosis too. And once i stopped taking drugs i feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo much better, all this crazy shit in my head transformed into compassion and intellegence, intuition, telepathy, knowledge, Love for myself.
Love yourself, dont rely on a drug, a therapist a shaman to love you. You are never alone.
There are many ashrams you can go to search for it. i dont know where you live. They could really help. You could go to India if you want to meet a transceded master.
The path of Drugs is a path, but very very hard. It is very easy to get caught up in the demons there. There are other paths: yoga, tantra, shaman(non drug), devotion, selfless service, taoism, zen, and the basis of all these paths is meditation for the most part.
It sounds like your mom isnt so accepting of you, its ok. Accept yourself unconditionally. It doesnt matter what it is accept it, dont repress it, dont express it, just observe. It will be quite dark for a little while, because youve thrown so much negativity into your conciousness/ unconsciousness, but soon flowers will bloom, there will be a light, you will be healed. the clouds will leave. something so simple as just observing the thoughts, the mind. observe the breath. dont even judge. just observe and you will find your not your thoughts. right now your thoughts are ruling you, but your not your thoughts. just observe them and they will slowly begin to vanish, and the sunshine will come.
I would check out Vipassana meditaiton. Its a free 10day course.
Good luck,
remeber all suffering is self imposed. no one else is making you feel this way but you. You can never escape life, you have to accept it, then it transforms.
The most beneficial thing you can do now is stop taking drugs and meditate. Find some friends who meditate.
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Listen to what the universe wants you to do, be happy
listen to what the mind wants you to do, be miserable
just be Here. Reality as it is, dont change it as you would like it to be, just observe, no repression, no expression
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