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 PyroBurns
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 I've been more sad than glad since my move.
#8607897 - 07/08/08 11:58 AM (4 months, 25 days ago) |
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Although I'm happy I made the switch, and love this city a lot of my days are pretty sorrowful. Either a whole bunch of unfortunate shit happens to me (car almost breaks down, shower with ugly naked old men, can't find a room, etc.) or I'm just too negative to let that shit go and wear a smile instead.
But I can't. When I get sad, I'll be sad no matter what I'll try to make of things. I'll try to remember that people have it worse. They sleep outside in hotter weather, without a car, without showers for weeks instead of a day, or without food rather than crappy food. Then I'll remember that I'm in the USA society. Where I NEED to have a job and place to clean up and eat. It's the norm. There really isn't an outlet for people like me unless I hang out with the drunks lining the downtown streets at night.
Wouldn't all this freedom be fun and adventurous? I haven't found it to be, yet. Or at least for long stretches of time.
I haven't been able to at least relax with some drugs either. I need to be clean for my drug tests, and I'm allergic to most alcohols.
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 RobMarley420
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 Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: PyroBurns]
#8607948 - 07/08/08 12:13 PM (4 months, 25 days ago) |
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Go to the local drug store and get yourself some 5-htp. That should help put you in a better mood. It's kinda like an over the counter anti-depressant. It increases the levels of serotonin in your brain.
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PyroBurns
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: RobMarley420]
#8607987 - 07/08/08 12:21 PM (4 months, 25 days ago) |
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I already have fat bottle of that. Maybe I should start taking some. But will some pills help, or is it a problem stemming from my own mindset?
But this topic isn't about me as much as the general idea of freedom or something like that. I mean, I could use the advice, but I wonder if the general idea of nomad-ing isn't as romantic as it is. Or maybe I'm just too uptight or something. I don't know but it sounds like something I'd like to discuss over this nice peppermint tea.
Maybe my stress stems from the fact that I'm actively looking to make a living by finding a job and apartment as soon as possible rather than just chilling out. These two guys at the hostel I stayed at seemed pretty content being homeless here. They were hanging out and drinking, rather than frantically checking their emails for job replies or even looking for jobs.
People bike around the country are happy because they are biking around the country. If they bike, sleep, and eat they are successful. Their only worry is to get to their destination.
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PyroBurns
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: PyroBurns]
#8612932 - 07/09/08 12:29 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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Oh well at least I have a job tomorrow.
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 JacquesCousteau
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: PyroBurns]
#8613009 - 07/09/08 01:05 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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PyroBurns said:
Oh well at least I have a job tomorrow.
Well that sounds like a step in the right direction.
All I can say about your mood is that negative moods cause stress on the body which will only make your struggle more difficult.
Take some time away from your struggles to sit quietly in meditation. If you're a logical person, follow the course of logic I described above to realize that stressing out about your situation will only make you unfit to deal with the situation.
You don't need drugs... you just need to calm down and allow yourself some peace of mind. Your problems will be waiting for you when you are done, but you will be ready to face them instead of overwhelmed.
I wish you all the best.
-jC 
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#8613419 - 07/09/08 03:06 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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I guess what I was trying to say above is basically: If you keep your head up, you won't fall on the treacherous rocks over which you are climbing. 
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: PyroBurns]
#8613448 - 07/09/08 03:15 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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Wait... why are you in a position where you're showering with old naked men?
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: DragonChaser]
#8613457 - 07/09/08 03:16 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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He's basically homeless and trying to establish himself in Portland, Oregon.
I'd imagine the showering with strange old men bit was a means to an end of getting one's self showered in a hostel. (Though I would have waited...)
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MikeLib
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: RobMarley420]
#8613727 - 07/09/08 04:12 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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RobMarley420 said:
Go to the local drug store and get yourself some 5-htp. That should help put you in a better mood. It's kinda like an over the counter anti-depressant. It increases the levels of serotonin in your brain.
i take that shit after a night of Ecstasy. it helps restore the serotonin i used up
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: MikeLib]
#8613784 - 07/09/08 04:28 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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Where did you move to? Location can have a lot to do with it.
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Ego Death
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Re: I've been more sad than glad since my move. [Re: PyroBurns]
#8613861 - 07/09/08 04:45 PM (4 months, 24 days ago) |
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If they bike, sleep, and eat they are successful. Their only worry is to get to their destination.
That sounds good to me. No attachment but I think there would still be much worry and unachieved ambition.
You want more than that. You want a place to call home and money to buy things you need and want.
Stick with it. Waiting is the worst part. I was in the same boat, jobless and homeless 2 years ago. I've come a long way since then. If you keep trying you will too! 
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