On 03/30/2007 I was at home with my girlfriend and decided
we were going to eat some mushrooms that I had cultivated thinking they were
the regular legally edible strain of mushroom.
We started to eat them and I was engorging myself with them because
they tasted very good.
I enjoy the taste of mushrooms and didn’t
think it would hurt to eat a lot of them.
About a half hour after we had eaten the mushrooms we
started to feel differently, I am not
sure of how to describe this feeling other than being light headed and things
seemed to get brighter. We giggled
constantly and I pushed it off as being part of my hangover from the previous
night. As time went on we started to
feel very differently, so different it was difficult for me to stand and I
wasn’t feeling well. I didn’t want to
throw up so I decided it was best if I went into my bedroom and lie on the
bed. As I was on the bed Ashley came in
and lied next to me.
At this point we were both having these very intense
feelings of flying through time and space.
The visuals started to kick in at this point and I was seeing things I
had never thought of or dreamt of seeing or feeling. While I was looking at the ceiling it started
o warp and bend, shadows stood out, and the lighting seemed perfect.
When I decided it was time for me to close my eyes I saw
things that amazed me. I tried my best
to explain them to Ashley to see if I would be able to get her to picture the
same thing, but unfortunately she was not able to have the same visuals as
I. I saw a round metallic liquid ball
that had little blocks of lights that were red, yellow, green, purple, blue,
and white. This ball would fold in on
itself and seemed to bring me with it. I
in a way felt like I had become a part of the ball. I had to open my eyes immediately at this
point because the feeling was very intense and I could no longer handle it.
The second time I closed my eyes I saw the same type of
metallic liquid, but this time without the lights and it had no shape. When I squeezed my eyes together when they
were closed I noticed that a drop of this same liquid would be released from my
eyes and land in the pool of liquid.
When this drop hit the liquid the splash would be very slow and it would
morph into tentacles and other various patterns. Then I decided I would squeeze my eyes again
to see what would happen. The result of
me doing this again was a replay of the first time. It would continue to start over and do the
same patterns. The only time it was
different was depending on how long I chose to watch the morphing.
There are a few different visuals I had while lying there on
the bed, but nothing as intense as this.
I did see random cartoon characters and such but this does not seem
worth mentioning, nor can I seem to recall exactly what it was.
The final part of my experience with mushrooms was very
interesting. I was still lying in bed at
this point, going on probably six hours.
I started to hear music, sounds that were like a bass guitar, saxophone,
and other instruments. I was nodding my
head along and tapping my leg to the music.
Until I actually put thought into where he music was coming from I was
jamming out. Once I realized there
really wasn’t any music being played in my house and it was all in my mind I
started to laugh and giggle like a madman, rolling on my sides and looking
around to make sure nobody was looking at me.
The third and final phase of my experience was when I
started to come out of this mind state.
I started to think I would never return to normal and started to worry
that I would be stuck like this forever.
I am not sure if I was just beginning to sober up enough to realize the
extent to which this hallucinogen had affected me or if it might have been
because Ashley was already back to normal at this point. Regardless of the reasoning behind it, it was
one of the scariest things I have experienced.
I want to understand what I saw and why I thought about
these things. I think there is meaning
behind everything that happened and someday I may come to know this meaning, or
at least I hope.
To conclude I think that mushrooms can shed light on a lot
of things in life depending on how closely you pay attention to what you are
experiencing. I think it is very
important to write down what you see as you see it or immediately afterward
because of the dreamlike state you are in.
My experiences were like dreams and are hard to remember. Another good idea might to be to have someone
that has not eaten these to write what you tell them down for further study.
