I had my first experience with mushrooms yesterday and I must say that it has
changed my life. I had always been fascinated with drugs and all I'd done before
yesterday was marijuana. So about two weeks ago when one of my friends got some
shrooms I started contemplating whether I wanted to do them or not. I really
didn't know very much about it, and I heard mixed reviews from certain people,
so I still was unsure.
So one day I was surfing around and came across this
very site, The Shroomery. I read most of the trip reports and was fascinated by
some of the unbelievable experiences that people were having. I became very
aware of the effects of the drug even though I had never actually taken it yet.
I figured I was ready to go on the actual adventure myself, and April 2, 1998
would be when it would happen.
I got over to my friend's house at about 8:30
that night and we each had about 1.5 grams of dried mushrooms. We put them
inside peanut butter sandwiches and I didn't even taste them. It was then a
waiting game. After that we walked to the movie store down the street to rent a
movie and we got Army of Darkness and The Full Monty. I figured we should get
some comedies from what I'd been reading (I wanted the trip to be as enjoyable
as possible).
At the movie place, about 30 mins after consumption, I was
starting to slightly feel something.. Words seemed to sort of pop out at me and
lights seemed a bit more colorful, but I just thought it was the drugs doing
it.. I figured it was more a psychological thing. When we walked back to my
friend's house I wasn't feeling much at all, except I was a lot more talkative
than I'd been earlier in the night.
We went inside, started Army of Darkness
and that's when things started to get kind of weird. The first thing that hit me
about the movie were the colors! I thought it may have just been the tape or
something, but the colors seemed so much sharper and almost fairy tale like,
they were so bright and happy.
I still wasn't convinced though, because I
felt really normal. I was talking to my friend and I was fully aware of
everything around me, which was something I'd never experienced with other
drugs. When I did marijuana, everything was always so cloudy and it seemed
difficult to carry on even the simplest conversations. With alcohol, all
judgment was lost (as most people know). With shrooms, however, it was nothing
like this. I just felt really happy and really aware of rything around me.
The first sign where I knew they were taking effect was a scene in the movie
where there is a huge crowd standing behind the main character. To me it looked
as if the crowd was completely in 3D, as if I was wearing those 3D glasses you
get at Disney World.
Eventually, when I tried hard enough, I could isolate
every little object on the screen. It was like each person was at a different
depth and the TV was no longer just a 2D viewing experience anymore.
There
were parts in the movie where I actually laughed out loud (and if you knew me,
this is something I don't do often). I've never laughed so hard at a movie in my
life, and I suggest watching it for anyone who's planning on tripping with a
movie.
After the movie ended, I was close to my peak. I had a couple of
glasses of wine, and then my friend and I went out for an adventurous walk. The
minute I stepped outside, it hit me even more. The trees were beautiful, and I
couldn't stop staring at them. It was like I was experiencing nature for the
first time all over again. I couldn't stop smiling and looking up at the sky.
Everything seemed like a fairy tale land. It reminded me of a land in the
chronicles of Narnia (if anyone's read those books)or Lord of the rings. The
trees had so much emotion and life to them. The houses all had a friendly nature
to them, as if I could just walk up to anyone's door and talk to them.
I
didn't want to look at anything except natural things. Whenever a car would
drive by I would look away and continue looking at the trees and the grass. The
street lights and the mall didn't interest me at all. They weren't nearly as
beautiful as the puddles and the trees.
After walking for a while we finally
came across a park, and it had just rained that night so there was a huge puddle
in the middle of the park. It looked like a small lake to me and the reflection
of the trees on the perfectly calm water was incredible.I tilted my head upside
down and it was like I was seeing an upside down universe (it's kind of hard to
explain).
After enjoying that for a while we got on the swings and the play
structure at the park and I felt like I was a little kid again. I even pictured
myself as a little 5 year old with no cares in the world. Everything was so I
exciting and new. I couldn't stop laughing. At one point, when I was talking to
my friend, I was so overcome with joy that I had to stop talking in
mid-sentence.
After that we jumped on the roof of one of the buildings in the
park and just stared at the sky. I was in awe of the pure simplicity yet beauty
of nature. It was starting to wear off by this time however, and I knew it was,
even though I never wanted it to end. We then got our bikes out and went for a
bike ride, and came back to my house and listened to Enya, which put me in a
complete state of relaxation (I really recommend listening to this after a long
night of shrooming). I lied on the floor and just let my thoughts wander.
After a bit of that I decided it was time to go to sleep, but I couldn't fall
I sleep. I lied in my bed for what seemed like hours trying to sleep and I knew
I needed music to fall asleep. If I wanted music though I would have to go
downstairs and get my stereo. I still felt like a little kid, and my imagination
was running wild, and I felt scared, like something might be down in the
basement, so I just stayed in my bed. I finally fell asleep around 4:30 a.m.
The next morning I had to go to work, and I still noticed things on the bus
ride there. Colors still seemed brighter and I still couldn't stop looking at
the trees. I now have so much more of an appreciation for nature than I had
before, and I started to realize that all these material things, like cars and
money, will never be able to match the beauty and honesty of nature.
This was
so fitting, because today I had an interesting experience. I rode over to the
bank on my bike in order to deposit some money into my account and I just left
my bike outside thinking I would only be a couple of seconds. Next thing I knew,
my bike was gone. It was a $700 bike. For some reason I really didn't care. The
experience I had the night before had affected me so much that I realized my
bike was not really that important after all.
When I got home, however, I got
in a huge argument with my mom about the bike and it really rattled me. I
couldn't hold in my emotions and I started crying in front of her (which is
something I haven't done in years).
I haven't had the greatest year, and
suddenly all my emotions started pouring out. It was really nice to talk to my
parents, though, and I believe it was something I had to do. I told them things
that had been on my mind for months.
That is my story, it is definitely a
long one, and if you've read this far I'm surprised. I must say I hadn't felt
stronger emotions of sadness and happiness in the longest time before I did
shrooms last night. I think it was very important for me to let those emotions
out because I am the type of person who always holds his emotions in.
I also
now have so much more respect for nature and my friends. Had my friend not have
been with me during the experience I would not have enjoyed it even half as
much. It was the companionship that may have been the most important thing of
the trip for me.
I hope to trip again in a few weeks, but after the intensity
of the experience, I don't want to end up tripping too often. I think it's
better just to do it every once in a while as a little vacation. It was a
vacation that I very much needed. I definitely will visit the fairy tale land
again.
