It all started with a winter road trip to the college Umass Amherst. My friend who lived there had gotten acid for my friends and I. I had always wanted to do it and got excited to finally experience it. We started out in my friend's dorm smoking weed, then everyone took their share of the acid (2 tabs). I'm not really sure what type of lsd it was, but it was very strong. Not really knowing what to expect I sat there anticipating the effects in excitement. I could start feeling signs of the drug starting when my friend was showing me this song on his ipod and it sounded amazing.Then the room and my friends started to look a little distorted but nothing major, I thought I might have been having a placebo effect before the drug actually kicked in. But it wasn't long till it really hit me. At this start of the trip, it was an intense psychedelic blur which I don't remember well. I do know we decided to leave the dorm to venture outside.
Heavy tripping is reminds me of a lot of things. It reminds me a little of the time travel episode of spongebob when squidward ends up in that alternate dimension. It also reminds me of the movie Inception where everything is a dream within a dream. I got to the point where I was tripping so much that nothing was actually real and this is about the time I started having a bad trip.
I kept panicking trying to grasp reality as I was going through an intensive series of false realities (which included all sorts of crazy, strong, out of this world visions, hallucinations, and distortions. Things I'd have to take much more time to explain in detail). This brought me further and further into more and more messed up universes because my mind was basing each reality off the previous distorted universe. This kept going further and further, getting more and more intense, and faster and faster until I had an out of body experience. I had realized that I was on a drug putting me in this different world than the real world but I was trapped in this world unable to go back to the real world. And being outside, I was extremely cold and all I wanted was to get inside and be warm but i was in another, ever changing world inside my head so I couldnt lead myself to warmth. This and the lack of control of my reality is what really fed my bad trip. I went from thinking I was(in the real world) lying in the street waiting for a car to hit me,getting caught by a cop and going to prison, to being convinced I was dying from hypothermia. This was based off flashes of reality that I interpreted wrong in my trip. This was an awful, overwhelming, intense feeling. I was panicking horribly in my mind and i'm sure it showed in the real world.
When I thought I was moments from reaching my death from hypothermia, I was convulsing on the ground clenching my teeth in absolute fear and distress. I was flashing from trip to trip in milliseconds and the intensity was unbearable. The trips flashed faster and faster until it reached the speed of light and couldnt go any faster, At this point there was a big white flash which I thought was the mark of my death. Thats when out of body experience occurred and my mind took on a new, embracing state of acceptance and enlightenment. I was the furthest point from reality. My soul (this version of my body) was hovering and moving behind an ultimate distortion of reality in this strange dimension. At the time there was this weird trippy music playing in my head. Everything I saw behind me in this universe was impossible to grasp, but there was one thing in the center of all this which stood out clear: an eye inside a pyramid. In many cultures and religions, this figure often represents the eye of god. I had these bizarre epiphanies and realizations about life. I felt an amazing sense of intensity but at the same time tranquility as I let my being float on in space. It was if I had died, and entered this realm to be reborn. This state seemed to be lasting for thousands of years stretching through time on the edge of space. Sound crazy, I know but I'm serious when I say this happened to me. Sometimes acid is like beyond loosing your mind. It's absolutely nuts.
-----> This is a picture I made illustrating the out of body experience: http://www.shroomery.org/11429/Out-Of-Body-Hallucination
One of my friends decided that everyone was freaking out so it was best to spit up and call his brother to come get him, one of my other friends, and me. His (sober) brother and his girlfriend picked us up in his car. The warmth of the car was an ultimate pleasure and relief. I didn't know who these people where at the time but I trusted them knowing they were sober and from the real world. I was still freaking out a bit, coming back from an out of body experience and still being far from reality. But the warmth and soothing words from this guy's girlfriend telling me everything was going to be fine brought me into a much better state and made a huge step in getting me closer to reality. The couple led us into their house's living room which had blankets, a tv, and couches which was a really nice environment. However, we were all still having a slightly negative trip. We decided that we should all go to bed because we wanted the trip to stop. As we were laying down, setting up ourselves for bed I became schizophrenic essentially. I was sitting down seeing two of one of my friends who were both talking to me. This was pretty freaky because how was I to know which one was real or if anything was real for that matter. But we were all able to get settled in and try to sleep. Within minutes we realized that we couldnt sleep, and that the trip wasnt going to just stop because we wanted it to.
We turned the lights back on, started talking to each other again, and resumed the trip. Somehow we all slowly came down to a stable reality where we saw everything in the real world but just distorted. I pretty much got pass the point of seeing things that werent there. This is when the trip became awesome. I finally had a grip on reality. In retrospect, dragging down to the lowest of lows tripping and slowly rebuilding the true reality was this life completing experience. The two friends I was with in this house were finally in the same world as me. I felt much more stable and it was simply blissful. Everything was wavy and funky. It wasn't freaking me out, it was really fun and cool to me. I found all these comforting objects with good energies such as pillows, blankets, ect. which was vital to my mental stability.In the house there was this candy machine (which at the time we thought we might be hallucinating). We decided to go on a mission to find a quarter to get the candy out from it. As we walked down the hall to venture though the house, the much more mild tripping effect of the drug made the hallway seem longer than it really was. There were all sorts of these cool illusions like this. It was like I was in willy wonka's chocolate factory or something. We ended up finding one quarter for each of us. There was all sorts of candy to choose from and it felt like this was a really important decision. I choose mike and ikes because I felt a good energy in them. It may have been half my imagination but it seemed like the mike and ikes had little mouths on them. Though, I put them in my mouth with out hesitation and they tasted wonderful.
Later on we turned on the tv and watched cartoons, mainly spongebob. I don't think I laughed harder in my life. It's impossible to explain what it's like watching trippy stuff like that on tv but its extremely pleasurable. I don't remember exactly at what point, but in the house I went off by myself to take a pee. This was a crazy experience; the toilet seemed far away and my pee made a deep echo. And when I flushed I felt like I was going down in with the water for a moment. After I was finished, I then decided to look in the mirror. My face kept distorting and I was just geeking out because I looked so funny. I ended up looking at myself for a while, it was so amusing.
Eventually on the very slow cooldown from the trip, I still had to keep my mind from wandering and ending up in another reality again. I started listening to Jimi Hendrix and The Beatles which sounded amazing and took on new meaning I never picked up on before this whole experience. Looking at the cover art was really cool also. Like myself, when people come down from heavy tripping, a lot of the time they feel the need to explain what happened to themselves. People come up with the most fascinating, intelligent explanations. One of my friends wrote this incredible abstract poetry that strangely made so much sense. I personally made a more logical explanation to myself in my phone which later inspired what I'm writing now.
At the end of the trip, I still saw kaleidoscopes when i closed my eyes. I started to freak out a little wondering if would ever feel the same or ever completely come back to reality. But as time went on I slowly snapped out of it and realized I had nothing to worry about. I kept thinking it as waking up from a dream, which kept things in a positive perspective. Now I look back on it as the best and worst time of my life. It certainly changed my outlook on life and my perception on things. Dropping acid was one hell of experience and I think with time I will look back and feel glad I decided to do it.
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